I haven't really been on theO a whole lot. MY internet is out again, so I can only really communicate via pms. So, people need to send me pms to keep me company! :) I'm at my friend's dorm room stealing her internet tonight. Supposed to be doing homework. Whoops! But, I just wanted to write. So, I'm gonna write about what's been happening to me lately.

1. The wedding actually turned out to be a lot better than normal. Pictures and whatever took forever, but the wedding was quick. REmember my cousin that did not so nice things to me when I was a kid? Ya, I got to see and talk to him last over the wedding. He just creeps me the fuck out. I felt like he was always looking at me. >.<
But, the reception was what was really fun! After the wedding, we got onto the party bus, and after a stop to take a shit ton more pictures, we were at a bar where I started heavily drinking, and then we stopped at a liquor store to grab more drinks before we just road tripped around town. I was very drunk on the bus... I may have danced on the stripper pole.... Two of the groomsmen may have been hitting on me all night.... And, I liked the attention. One, Flynn, was more obvious about his advances than the other. My parents don't like Joe right now (for reasons I'll explain later), and they wanted to have me work things out with Flynn. But, I don't want a long distance relationship. Again. They don't work for me. Besides, I still like Joe and want to make that work, and I felt like I was cheating on him or something because Flynn and I were holding hands all night, dancing very... intimately, and I could tell he wanted so badly to kiss me, but I wouldn't allow him to do so. If I had been sober, it wouldn't have gotten that bad. I had 12plus Mike's, wine or champagne I can't remember which, and one or two cans of budlight. It was the most drunk I'd ever been. The best part? I woke up the next morning feeling fine. No hangover at all.
Flynn and I have been texting nearly nonstop since the wedding, and I talk to the other one on FAcebook a lot. Flynn sent me a picture of himself without a shirt on... me gusta.
I haven't told Joe about it. I'm not trying to hide it, but he just doesn't seem interested about the wedding. He never asked me how it went or anything. I told a couple stories from that night, and he just didn't seem to care, so I figure why bore him? If he wanted to know, he'd ask. I'm tired of him complaining about his life and then never asking about my life.

2. Ok. So, onto Joe and I. Why do my parents hate him? Well, he broke up with me a couple weekends ago while I was back home with my family. Over text. He said a bunch of stuff about how it was him and not me (his depression, anxiety, etc). I was heartbroken. I refused to cry, but I was not happy, and I told my parents and friends about it. I thought we were done. I get back to town, and I'm with my friends who are trying to make me feel better when he texts and asks if I'd come over to talk. We talked about a lot of stuff, and he said it was his depression that makes him freak out and think things aren't going to work and that if he took away all that, he'd really like me and that we could be really happy together. But, I can't take away all that. I want to make it work. And, we kind of have.
Last weekend, my dad sat me down and proceeded to tell me how he thinks Joe's no good for me, basically. He proceeds to tell me how I deserve better and starts listing off all his faults. The sad part is, when I'm away from Joe, I see his point and I'm like, ya, maybe I am better off. But, then I'll tell Joe about my fears, and we'll talk it out and then when I'm with him, I feel right.
So, right now, we're just trying to see if we can make us work. I'm not sure how I feel about us right now. I really want to make this work, but I just feel like he isn't trying. I don't know....

3. So, this guy from a couple years back had a giant crush on me, and he would text me all the time. It kind of freaked me out, and I told me mom about it, and she told me to send him a text saying my boyfriend (at the time) didn't like me texting him. Well, I felt bad lying, so I had my mom send the text and he freaked out on me saying I was a fucking idiot, blah blah blah. We haven't really talked a whole lot since. We talk a little bit on facebook every once in a great while. Well, he was at the wedding and saw me. And now he's facebooking and texting me again. Joy. >.<

Well, that's about it. Been not too exciting around here. How are all of you?