Well, I had a horrible night on Tuesday. I was texting a friend of mine about Joe saying, and I quote, "Joe's being all caring and shit. Hard to stay mad."
First of all, if you know me at all, you know that me saying shit isn't a negative conotation. It's just how I talk. It's the same as saying, "He's being all caring and sweet." But, that's not how I talk. And when I say mad, I meant hurt from the previous weekend. you guys know the story.
Well, I accidentally sent the text to Joe instead. I realized right away what I did and texted him again lying and saying it was about someone else. He called me out on it and I lied again. I just panicked. I didnt want to hurt his feelings I guess, and I didnt want to make him mad at me.
We texted all night even though we were two feet away from each other because we didn't want to fight in front of his friends. He was hurt, and I totally understand.He has every right to be. I apologized so many times and gave my side of the story, but he didn't think he could trust me anymore. I felt terrible for three days. He texted me Thursday night and told me he told his friends about the whole thing, and they're mad at him for being mad at me still. His friends love me. I went over to talk to him Thursday night, and his friends were high fiving me and telling me they were happy to see me. And everyone I've told the situation to agreed that he's overreacting. I dont agree with that at all. Trust and honesty is a huge deal to me, and I broke that. He has every right to be mad at me. Thankfully, I think we're getting better and are gonna be okay.
It's just hard right now.

In other news, I found out what's wrong with me. I have ovarian cysts. birth control pills should help get rid of them, though. Thank God.