So, my best friend: John. I have had a slight crush on him for about 4 years on and off again. And with everything happening with Joe, I'm extra vulnerable and stressed right now. And John gives me a lot of attention, which I like.
But I had a friend tell me yesterday that he kissed her. And that they did other things. And it physically hurt. But I can't tell her that. I'm not supposed to like him. No one knows it.
So last night, i was hanging out with both of them and a couple other friends. I had to spend the night at my friend's dorm and while i was 'sleeping' they were kissing and stuff. I knew it. And I already felt like shit with the whole joe thing and then this. I was making myself sick. But i have to pretend to be supportive and like it doesn't hurt. I hate this.