So, Joe came over again last night and stayed the night. He had called me earlier to tell me not to come into work because of the rain (We were getting flash flood warnings!) and then he asked me if I was okay, that I sounded upset. I said I was fine and we hung up. He texted me a few hours later to ask if I was okay, if I was mad at him. I was bummed out all day, and he somehow picked up on that the moment I answered the phone. He said it was because he knew me.

So then he said he wanted to stay the night with me because he wanted to make me feel better, to be with me. And he did make me feel better. We talked about my friends leaving, where they were going, what I was going to do. He told me what he went through when he graduated college and all his friends left, too. And he really did help me feel better.

It's weird, though, because he treats me almost better now than he did when we were together. He tells me he loves me a lot more. Probably more in these last two weeks than he did the whole time we were together. He's been to my place twice in two weeks. He came to my place twice in ten months while we were together.

And today, the husband of my coworker confronted him and made him feel really uneasy. And he's feeling overwhelmingly sad, but he won't come see me or let me come see him because he's got to do an overnight shift at work.... le sigh

The highlight of today? Saw my mom and my brothers. I haven't laughed that hard in I don't know how long. It was so nice, so normal to see them and hang out. I miss that. I miss being the old me.

Here's a pic of me from today!