Something I didn't put in the last post because I didn't know if I really wanted to talk about it, but I guess, I should get it out in the open and move on.

From here on out, it is going to get very personal. Very quickly. If you can't handle it, just hit the backspace and I'll understand.

Last night, as you all know, I had sex with Dick Pics Joe. What I didn't talk about was that in the middle of it, he suddenly tried anal. Without asking me first. And you are supposed to work up to it, using fingers and lube. Well, earlier when he had been giving me a massage, he had used one finger. But, that didn't do shit considering a penis is a lot thicker than one finger. But anyway, he just puts his dick in my ass without warning and just starts pounding away. And it hurt. Not terribly bad because my own juices worked as good enough lube, but he was stretching me, and it didn't feel good. And I told him to slow down, and he did for a couple seconds and then just went right back to going as quickly as he could. Then he pulled out and put it in my vag, and then I was like thank god he's done. but then he pulled out and went into my ass again, and I was like, this hurts, can we not do that, and he didn't stop. He just kissed me and kept going pulling out to cum.

So, then I was all worried that if I didn't get on top and do him from top he'd try to go in my ass again.

I told my friend about it, and she told me that was bordering on rape because I had told him no and he didn't listen to me.

And I guess I see that, but Dick Picks Joe was also really nice to me the whole time, I'm sure he didn't mean to hurt me.

But then I wonder if that's just me covering for him like I always do for other people...