You know that awkward moment when you're invited to a party second hand, from someone else? And then that person doesn't go. Do you go or not? I chose not to go. I figured that if they really wanted me there, they'd text me.
Which is exactly what they did.
At 11, I get a text that I should come hang out with some fun people. How could I resist that invitation? I mean, there is only one person at that party I knew really well. And three others I knew through the first one, but with them, we were more like acquaintances. So, I really didn't think they'd want me there.
It is so hard for me to get used to people wanting to hang out and be around me. I'm not used to being wanted. I'm used to being there through association and that people just put up with me because they feel they have to. And that's why I wasn't going to go. I didn't want to have to deal with that.
But, I got there, and D. gave me a hug and gave me a hard time for not showing up earlier. This is the guy I had thought only put up with me because he liked Ana, my best friend. But, no. He wanted me there. Me. I hung out with T and a girl I had never met, R, for awhile. She was really sweet and made me feel really welcome and not out of place. Then, S, the one I knew really well came out and told me to come in and play Twister with everyone else.
I haven't played Twister since I was like 12. I had so much fun. I never lost a single match. And people were cheering for me and we all had a great time. Then S and his girlfriend were leaving, and I was going to go, too. I figured it would be less awkward that way, and I wouldn't have to worry about wanting to leave later.
I gave D a hug goodbye, but he just picked me up and put me on the couch. Guess I'm gonna stay.
It was just four of us now. D, R, Nathan, and myself. Nathan and I were sitting on the couch, R on this chair, and D was up walking around doing lord knows what. Nathan and I were on such a common wavelength. We were saying the same things, thinking the same things. We were getting along so well. We made such a connection.
Then, D sits to my left, making me squish into Nathan. D was really weird. He kept holding my upper thigh, holding my hand, touching my boobs, and his hand touched my crotch on more than one occasion. And, every time he shifted, he would put pressure on my crotch, like he was trying to turn me on, and it was kind of working for awhile. But, Nathan was giving me a lot of attention, like he liked me, too. And, I was more interested in him.
We decided to put in a movie, and it ended up just being Nathan and I, and we fell asleep cuddling together for a bit. Then, I had to go because it was 4:30 in the morning. And as he showed me out, he asked for my number. As he was up and about, I could see he had a boner, and I think he wanted me to go so he didn't try to do anything.
We've been texting ever since. And he's such a nice guy. Cute, too.
I really hope this goes well.
