Memories And Jersey

Created By SteveDoninger

I Now Understand What The Metalheads Went Though.

I’m sick of American recognition of music. Last night was the Grammy’s and no I didn’t watch. Why? Because before the event even started Skrillix had already won 3 Grammy’s. He won a fucking Grammy for remixing HIS OWN SONG! My favorite band Linkin Park has won 2 and they have sold over 50 million albums worldwide. They get recognized overseas but in America? Nope.

Before you think this is a bitter rant from an overzealous, bias fan it’s not. It’s a realization of how people feel during music trend changes.

I now understand how Thrash Metal and Metal fans felt in 2004 when “Screamo” or better known as Post – Hardcore became popular. They felt that the pussification of metal would be a permanent stain on the metal scene.

Now Post – Hardcore didn’t do the damage that Metal Heads thought it would. It didn’t win any awards, it didn’t get chart appreciation or award appreciation. The worst that the genre did was create and overtake some festivals, and make new bands for Metal Heads to love and hate.

It seems now however with trends come front - runners. The front - runners of the Post – Hardcore scene were the Emo kids and Scene kids. Now these kids were annoying and made you not want to go to the mall on Friday but they were sure as hell a lot better than the Juggalos so we endured it. I would be lying if I said I got nothing from the scene crowd, I in fact got a sweet haircut and a liking of scene girls. Scene girls are awesome.

As with any trend Post – Hardcore ended and the scene kids were lost for a little while, with the trend dead they had nothing to listen to so they kind of went into an indie phase until the new trend came into fruition. This trend is now Dubstep.

We have come full circle now. Dubstep is just the front –runners of the Emo scene. It’s just people latching on to mindless trends, kind of like fashion just dumber. Now since I’m a music buff I took my stabs at Dubstep to experience it so I can have an opinion on it. I go the extra mile before I have an opinion on something, I actually take the time to inform myself, rather then hump whatever someone tells me.

Now I’m aware that Dubstep will die out and no one will give a shit about it in a few years but as of right now it’s a mainstay and I have to endure the pointless garbage disposal sounds of the genre.

I am not that Thrash Metal fan who thinks that this music is going to ruin and sully the genre but unlike what they were worried about this music will affect the music they listen to. See bands are now including dubstep in their music to get recognition this is a dangerous cop out .

All in all dubstep sucks and the Grammy’s suck more.

Yeah lets take a classic amazing band like The Beach Boys and have Maroon 5 play…. What the fuck.

Love,
Steven
(You always have me, I'm here for you.)

Here are some free tunes!

A Song For Emma Watson. (Acoustic) (Must have a Twitter account):
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Technology Is A Bitch.

Technology is a bitch. I mean we rely on it more than we rely on each other, I’m not saying that I’m the opposite because without my iPod or computer I would be lost. I might be skinner since I would be forced to get outside, or I might have more friends because it would allow me to actually socialize with people. The reason I bring this up is because yesterday at the dentist office the 8 people in the waiting room were all on their phones, I was playing Angry Birds on my iTouch, and I realized what if by some chance we didn’t have these amazing technological breakthroughs what would we all be doing? I guess reading a magazine, book or keep to ourselves. It’s pretty crazy how far we have come. My phone, which is a blackberry, is basically a computer. It has 4 gigs of memory can go on the Internet and everything. Hell this phone can tell me the weather! That’s a little too much for just a phone but I guess as years go by phones will get even smarter. I hope they become aware and take over the world. To switch the topic up I just released a B-sides EP. It’s just a collection of songs I had lying around and I felt it was wrong to not have them be listened to. I did put my heart in them, maybe it will help someone else.

Love,
Steven
(You always have me, I'm here for you.)

Here are some free tunes!

A Song For Emma Watson. (Acoustic) (Must have a Twitter account):
Get my song A Song For Emma Watson. (Acoustic) for FREE in exchange for just one tweet!
Technology huh:
http://trkurl.com/finKDO

Taking Steps.

I haven’t picked up a guitar in about a week and you know it kind of feels good. Now that I’ve taken the pressure out of constantly writing down ever emotion I can take a step back and write about what matters and means most. I haven’t found what to write about yet but when I do I know it will be quality because I wont be pushing myself.

In other news I sold my first piece of art! It was a stencil of Charmander. It wasn’t the best thing ever but still it’s an accomplishment. I’ve been doing a lot of stenciling lately I guess I had to substitute one art for another in order to keep myself occupied and at peace. I still need practice but I’m getting the hang of it. It’s not a cheap hobby but it’s a time killer.

I don’t know if I talked about it earlier but I reconnected with my first girlfriend, which was a pretty big deal to me. I thought she hated me and wanted me dead but apparently not. She is doing well and we are friends.

I also started to talk with my second girlfriend. That’s all I need to say on that subject.

Life is getting stale, now don’t get me wrong it’s been stale for years but I think it’s time for me to move on and do something with it. Enough time has been wasted I need to make a plan and execute it. Or I need the apocalypse to happen, you know, either or is fine with me. I’d rather the apocalypse because I’m a fan or the survival genre.

I’ve been pretty numb to life especially this past year. All the glamour has been taken from it. Taken is a strong word, lets say lost. I used to be happy, now I’m not. I guess I’m just waiting for change that will never come. I guess it’s time I took steps to get my life in order.

Subtle signs of lessened times.

Love,
Steven
(You always have me, I'm here for you.)

Here are some free tunes!

A Song For Emma Watson. (Acoustic) (Must have a Twitter account):
Get my song A Song For Emma Watson. (Acoustic) for FREE in exchange for just one tweet!
Technology huh:
http://trkurl.com/finKDO

Heart Of A Villain (Old Demo):
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My Decision On Music. Spoiler I'm Not Quitting.

So the other day I was considering quitting writing and posting music. Why? Because I have no friends that actually support me, so why even post it if not even my best friends don’t care? This was the first time I have EVER considered stopping since I started. It was admittedly a moment of weakness; in reflections I blame the fact that I’ve been off my anti depressants for a week so things… no matter how miniscule have been getting to me.

Just to clear things up I will never quit music but taking a break every now and then is healthy, especially in my state of mind. I think when I get my anti depressants I’ll start up again other wise I could have another dumb breakdown in faith.

I can’t live without writing music about my life and the things in it so the thought of ever stopping is inconceivable to me. I need an outlet for my emotions… everyone does. I can’t draw anymore so I have nothing left.

It would be nice to have the support of my friends but when they need me I wont be there. I’m sick of always being the fall guy but when I need something as simple as 3 minutes of their life to listen to a person song they can’t do it. They can’t find the time to simply give one of my songs a listen then they don’t need my assistance.

Speaking of depression I hate when people… mostly females claim to be depressed when they are constantly socializing and hanging out with friends. I can barely leave my room, hell I can barely text. Living life is a struggle if you suffer from depression most days you wonder the point of even living. I’m not just saying that there are days… weeks where I don’t want to exist anymore. It’s not an exaggeration, just a fact. In conclusion people crave attention, and want you to tell them how “amazing” they are. Fuck people.

So yeah I was in a deep hole and had no one to help me out, I just had to wait the depression out to really consider what I was saying and thinking. I would rather die than to quit music.

I do think I’m going to take a little break though so I can return to form a little bit. I’m a solo artist so it’s hard when you catch hate and have no one but your bi-polar self to pick you back up.

I’m hoping to change style a little bit to change things up. I probably won’t but it would be nice to express myself more lyrically. That’s what I’m hoping for most of all.

I’m sick of myself.

Love,
Steven
(You always have me, I'm here for you.)

Here are some free tunes!

A Song For Emma Watson. (Acoustic) (Must have a Twitter account):
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Technology huh:
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Heart Of A Villain (Old Demo):
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Lyrics:

Dont waste your breath
With words misleading
Yeah to get it off your chest
So no smile you regret
Just hold your breath
For the comfort of a warm bed
Find that smile youve always had
Did this fit in with all your plans? No
Whose life is this anyway?
Dont let love slip away
Here in your heart Ill stay

Dont say its not worth it
Despite how dark it is
Your hands on mine
Ill keep you safe
Till the end of time

With all your strength
Will you give in?
When your anxious under minds you
And you feel like you cant pull through
Just hold your breath
When you subtlety count to three
And everything you see
Becomes a memory

Until the next
Time your heart skips a beat
Will it skip a beat for me
Or sin and its vanity
Just listen to the hymn and calm yourself
All lies mean nothing now
Just whistle through the sound
Ill find you
Somewhere somehow
Just whistle through the sound
Ill find you
Somewhere somehow

I wanted to believe
That it was just a bad dream
That this was all a dream
And when I opened my eye
Everything would be
Back to normal
But when morning never came
Nothing had changed
No nothing had changed
Nothing ever changes

No nothing ever changes
Their lives or faces
No nothing ever changes

I hate to see her dance
To see her send them
I hate to see her dace

Dont say its not worth it
Despite how dark it is
Your hands on mine
Ill keep you safe
Till the end of time