- Created By YukamiKun
Entry : 3.75 *RANT*
Hey guys, been busy for a bit so I never got to check here.
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Nothing going on, except a lot of bullshit and mood swings coming from my mother.
-I was eating, lost my appetite due to my mom complaining about me.
-Go home, remember that there is desert, she gets pissed off that I ordered too much, and now I want desert.(Ordered 4 dishes of food, finished 3)
-Compares me to my little sister, demands why I'm not good enough and why can't I be like my friends.
-Sometimes barges into my room and asks what I'm doing when I'm working. I lose my work flow and I stop. She then accuses me of doing something else and not focusing.... I was focusing until you came in without knocking..
- I'm losing my mind RN, but I don't want anymore yelling in this household. but she does it for me anyways.
-When she yells at me to say something when it's a one sided fight, she goes to my father about how I try to make her out as the villain.. Heh, I'm doing what they taught me. *DON'T TALK BACK TO YOUR PARENTS, TREAT THEM WITH RESPECT*
God I feel like a tumblr user on the dark side of Tumblr...
Heard from a friend that typing or writing out your problems will help me cope with them. So I'm taking her advice.
Working so far.
Bright side of today : Broke 500K barrier on osu!.
Signing out,
- Yuki
Entry : 3
Another day, another time to get schwifty. Hehehe
Hopefully you all know that today. was the day. THAT THE RICK AND MORTY GAME CAME OUT
This is the first time I've been so genuinely excited for something in SO LONG.
Me and a couple of friends sat down in a circle playing this game at lunch. We progressed far, 8 badges/18.
But me being the die hard, no life fan... I got 14 badges when I got home... I have a few problems.
Feeling a little better today, for obvious reasons, but the plans are still on.
Brief happiness isn't going to change my mind.
I hope you all have an enjoyable day.
Sorry for the short post. >.<
Signing out,
- Yuki
Entry : 2
Well. Today has been a rather bad day for me.
Woke up abruptly hearing the voices of my parents bouncing off of the walls. Being the curious cat that I am, I sneak my way downstairs and turns out they were arguing. Arguing about what? I don't know but I do care. Not for them, but for my little sister.
She's a shy and fragile child and she means the world to me. I don't know why, but my "brotherly" instincts tell me that I need to protect this child whether it be physical, or emotionally. I'm not going to shield her from these dangers no matter what, because she needs to learn how to be tough and how to pick herself up despite the situation.
So I sneak my way upstairs again and go to close her door... The poor thing was tossing and turning and... crying? I go into her room and cover her up with the blanket and wiped her tears. As she stopped, I returned to my room.
It was 2 in the morning and it was just four hours until I leave the house for school.
For these four hours, I lay there thinking about something I don't quite recall, but seemed to be of great importance. Ironic.
I see the time and I prepare my things before I leave.
As I walk out, I pass a table in the living room, I catch a glimpse of something on the table.
They seem to be divorce papers... Tch.
If this goes through then me and my sister will be separated, as much as I didn't want this to happen, I don't have any power to do anything. My parents are stubborn as bulls, and irrational as hell.
I take my leave and head to school. Wasn't an enjoyable day and it wasn't so much a terrible day... Like usual.
But today I felt worse, tired of it, and I feel my patience slipping away slowly.
My friends seem to be showing worry for me, and I find that a waste of emotions. Can you really run out of emotions? Beats me. They shouldn't worry too much for someone like me.
Well I haven't told anyone yet, but....
I have great plans for valentines day.
The day to end it all
Signing out,
-Yuki
Entry - 1
Well I guess this is my first post. I've been lurking this place for quite a while, my .. friend has been here and was posting frequently, so i thought to myself "Why not" and here it is. My story on how I got here I guess..
Sorry for my formatting by the way.
These past years were fun somewhat. I've discovered this game called Realm of The Mad God and got hooked on the beta and continued when it was "finished".
I then met these group of people a year or two afterwards. It was truly fun with all the chatting we did and the role playing that came with it. I've run into my ups and downs with this moment and this game in general.
After this... falling out with the group, i left the game with a whopping 1k+ hours on steam(not including the time in browser). I kept in touch with this one person who i was fond of and we kept chatting for quite a while. We chatted about life a bit, we role played most of the time, until it was late at night. We were having fun and enjoyed ourselves.Then as I got busier and left Skype alone for a bit, the chatting and talking...
Just stopped.
I wasn't used to being alone, she'd unfriended me and was, what I thought; dormant.
I kept pestering and pestering constantly, hours at a time, turned into days, weeks, with no reply.. Then I just stopped.
I felt needy, clingy and disgusting. She probably wanted to stay away, heh, I wouldn't be surprised. This side of me I've never seen before. I reflected on myself and i felt crappy, sickly and I wante- no, I needed change. So I stopped and focused on myself.
There are things that I've done that I'm not proud of, things people did, that I forgave them for, when I shouldn't have. But... all is in the past, and there isn't anything I, not anyone can do to fix what I've or they've done.
Time passed, I tried to fix myself, was lacking energy and was more tired as days past.
Then I remembered her. Was bored and shot her a friend request, she accepted and we chatted for a bit, told me why she kept silent and unfriended me all was good. What felt like months past, I came home from school and sat down on Skype to talk to her. I saw that the icon beside her picture was a question mark.
She unfriended me again. I related to why she did so before and left it.
Haven't heard from her on Skype since. Was worried but I brushed it aside.
How I came here? Well it's because she was making a story and wanted me to see how she progressed and wanted my help. That's what the chatting and role playing was about.
Well time has passed and now I'm kind of worried about her, more worried for her than for myself.
I hope she's doing alright.
If you're reading this, don't bother messaging me about this. Just take care of yourself and be safe. You know who you are. Remember, just smile.
Signing out,
-Yuki
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