Well I guess this is my first post. I've been lurking this place for quite a while, my .. friend has been here and was posting frequently, so i thought to myself "Why not" and here it is. My story on how I got here I guess..
Sorry for my formatting by the way.
These past years were fun somewhat. I've discovered this game called Realm of The Mad God and got hooked on the beta and continued when it was "finished".
I then met these group of people a year or two afterwards. It was truly fun with all the chatting we did and the role playing that came with it. I've run into my ups and downs with this moment and this game in general.
After this... falling out with the group, i left the game with a whopping 1k+ hours on steam(not including the time in browser). I kept in touch with this one person who i was fond of and we kept chatting for quite a while. We chatted about life a bit, we role played most of the time, until it was late at night. We were having fun and enjoyed ourselves.Then as I got busier and left Skype alone for a bit, the chatting and talking...
Just stopped.
I wasn't used to being alone, she'd unfriended me and was, what I thought; dormant.
I kept pestering and pestering constantly, hours at a time, turned into days, weeks, with no reply.. Then I just stopped.
I felt needy, clingy and disgusting. She probably wanted to stay away, heh, I wouldn't be surprised. This side of me I've never seen before. I reflected on myself and i felt crappy, sickly and I wante- no, I needed change. So I stopped and focused on myself.
There are things that I've done that I'm not proud of, things people did, that I forgave them for, when I shouldn't have. But... all is in the past, and there isn't anything I, not anyone can do to fix what I've or they've done.
Time passed, I tried to fix myself, was lacking energy and was more tired as days past.
Then I remembered her. Was bored and shot her a friend request, she accepted and we chatted for a bit, told me why she kept silent and unfriended me all was good. What felt like months past, I came home from school and sat down on Skype to talk to her. I saw that the icon beside her picture was a question mark.
She unfriended me again. I related to why she did so before and left it.
Haven't heard from her on Skype since. Was worried but I brushed it aside.
How I came here? Well it's because she was making a story and wanted me to see how she progressed and wanted my help. That's what the chatting and role playing was about.
Well time has passed and now I'm kind of worried about her, more worried for her than for myself.
I hope she's doing alright.
If you're reading this, don't bother messaging me about this. Just take care of yourself and be safe. You know who you are. Remember, just smile.
Signing out,
-Yuki
