I feel so out of place, so messed up. So wrong and awful and just.. weird. I feel like I missed the last bus to the one place I want to be, and now I can't find a way there. Like someones taken the heart straight out of me, and I'm walking about with a whole in my chest and no pulse. Nothing moves me, nothing stirs me. I'm so numb to things, and I don't understand it.I need someone to make me smile.. butterfly, this is me admitting I'm not strong enough. It's hard, and it hurts, but I'm doing it. I don't know what to do next though.