Oh where to begin. First of all, as many of you know there was another celebrity chat. It was kind of startling for me since less than twenty minutes before it was due to start Adam asked me if I wanted to moderate it. O_O That was a total... OMGWTF?!? moment. Seriously. So I temporarily got turned into an administrator for the chat so I could moderate it. It was kind of odd since the window for approving comments blocks the chat. So you have to move it around after approving a question.
It took getting use to since I didn't know it would do that. Plus... some members would send messages just to avoid getting booted for inactivity since Adam disabled the whisper function. Last time members would send whispers to the celebrity, so he wanted to avoid that problem this time. To give you an idea... I took a screenshot.
So that was a very interesting experience. Once it was over, I formated the chat and posted it for everyone on the front page. So those members who couldn't make it can read it.
Having finished that I went upstairs to call the nursing facility where my grandmother is staying since they had called earlier saying she was sick. I had just missed them leaving a message, literally. Even though she was responding to the medicine (she only started feeling bad on Monday and it wasn't really bad until a few hours before when they called) when they went back to check on her... she had passed away at approximately 12:05am Wednesday.
I have mixed feelings about it. One the one hand I'm sorry that she is gone, on the other, I'm glad that she just drifted off and didn't suffer. My grandmother was 96 years old. She had dementia and congestive heart failure issues. So we've known since we had to put her in the nursing home about five years ago, that it was only a matter of time.
She hasn't known who I am for nearly five years. So though I hated to put her in there, it was the best option since we couldn't afford 24 hour care for her. You see in the state of Utah... they pay the difference for the nursing home bill so she got the attention she needed. And with her memory problems... she was happy since every day was fun for her. It didn't matter if she saw a movie yesterday... she was happy to watch it every single day since she couldn't remember. So... it was sad and yet good that she got the help she needed.
So once the mortuary opens up... I have to go in and make all the arrangements for her funeral and such. I already did what I could tonight. -_- It just feels so odd that she died since it just seems like they'll be around forever you know? It's only been two hours and yet part of me is still feeling deep inside... how can this be real? -_-
Anyway, I may not be around much for a week or even two. If you have questions... direct them to Panda if you don't mind. If I was dealing with you for a moderation issue... just be patient. Once this gets settled, I'll get back with you on it. I wouldn't even be posting except it's the middle of the night and now I can't sleep after finding out and getting things started for settling her affairs.
What a crazy evening... seriously. I kind of feel shaky and sad and weird all in one. I don't know what to think really. Or what to do either, at least not at the moment. I'm sure I'll figure it out. Later.
EDIT: Wow... I've had to edit this like a billion times... I can't seem to quit making mistakes. o_O My grammar and spelling just went to hell it seems.
