I just wanted to get away... From them. Who's them you ask? ... Everyone. They just didn't seem to understand. Understand the meaning of the word love and understanding. They though they knew what it meant when it came down to me... but they didn't. They get those word confused with hatetred and confusion. I love you Yuri.... then why do you fear me? I know how you feel.... Then why don't you cry when i cry? And why don't you hug my when i'm in pain? Is it because i'm different? It is, isn't it? Mama? Why don't you love me like the other mamas love their children? Why? Don't look at me like that. Like how, mama? I was just looking at you. You say that every time when i look at you... I didn't do anything wrong... A biju, huh? I onder... I wonder if that's why mama don't love me... becuase i'm a biju...
It's not fair... not fair mama... You drove me away... i couldn't take it. I bet your glad that i'm gone. So you don't have to fear my orange and silver eyes any longer... I'm not happy mama... i'm scared... i don't know where i am... my depression keeps me in this state... as a demon... I look like a bobcat kitten... with three tails... are you happy mama? where ever you are... are you happy?............. What's this i feel? I feel... chakra... alot of chakra... and it's coming from.... a big mansion.... Should i go in there mama? I'm scared to... I bet you dont care... You don't care if i go in there or not... I'll show you mama! I'm going in there! Papa in heaven... i know you loved me more than mama... please watch over me papa... Please let me find people who will love me like you did.