My freedom on the road felt so good to me. I wanted more freedom but I knew that was enough. I stopped skating and found myself infront of the hotel. I didn't want to go in. I felt wierd vibes from the hotel but I guess I still had the cold. It wasn't as serious as before but it was still there, which was bad because cats doesn't do well with colds. I recahed to my room and packed my bags. I knew my vacation was over here. It was ruined by everything anyways. And plus, I was home sick. ... or was I? I didn't know if I was home sick or if I wanted to get away from the biju club. I know they didn't like me. Especially... S-Suki. I gulped. Just thinking of that girl gave me the chills. It was offical, I was afraid of Suki.

I wanted to get away from them. I even wanted to get away from Shukaku, though I love him. He had problems at the moment and who am I to bother him during a serious time like this? A no body, that's who. Kyuubi was also one of those people I wanted to get away from. Just think about it. I believe he doesn't like me in the slightist. I never knew him that well, I never seen him around, I tried to kill his sister even though I didn't want to, and he... just scares me. I'm glad that I never knew him. If I didn't get to know him, it would harder to be a threat to him and his club. Kyuubi was a person I wanted to get away from and he was a person that I should stay away from. I'm sure he doesn't do kindly to drop-outs.

Sometimes I thought to myself about me being dead. Would it be easier for people to live? Would they even care? Should I kill myself just for other people's happiness? These questions hanted me everyday ever since I was a little girl. The first person who gave me those thoughts was mama. ... What a whore. What a horrible person... What a bad mother...

Once I packed my stuff, I teleported back to Japan. Once I got there, I was standing infront of the Hidden Leaf Village entrence. I guess my heart wanted to come here. I should of teleported to the base but I didn't want to. I noticed that I was still in that uniform. I went into the bushes and changed into my ninja clothes I first wore to the mansion and placed the head necklace papa gave me on my head. I also let my hair down from the ponytail. I walked into the village and remembered the things in there. It's been months... Many months... I cant believe its been so long. I've seen many shops but the one that caught my eye was a flower shop. I smelt the many different colorful flowers' aroma. So sweet... So pretty. Then I saw those flowers. It was yellow buttercups. Papa always loved those types of flowers. And so did I. He would place one on my bed sheet everyday, knowing I would wake up to see beauty in my face. I collected about 500 of them and watered them everyday. I kept them healthy and strong... their probably dead now.

I bought 12 of them and continued walking. Soon enough I came to a familiar part of the village. Tall trees... Small houses... so familiar. I walked to the back of a house because I felt a presence of something. ... Once I got to the back I've seen a grave stone with yellow buttercups on the resting place... Oh my god... I knew where I was instently. I remember now. I was at my father's grave in the back of my old house...

~Yurikami