I took deep breaths as I found my way back into "my" bed. I pulled my legs up to my chest, but immediately I put them down. Would I crush the baby?
I couldn't help but keep looking down at my lower belly. Sometime, soon, my belly will get bigger...It didn't seem right. Mother would not like this at all.
I don't want to be a pregnant teen...
"Pregnant..." I whispered. "Pregnant Neka..." It just didn't fit.
I want to disappear. I want to disappear and never return. Does Houkou know? What if he does? What if he doesn't want me anymore? What if just wants to never see my face again....
As much as I knew I was probably wrong, I kept chanting a spell....A spell that caused me to get up and run. Run. Run. Run...RUN.
I ran out of the house. I heard Houkou calling out my name. I didn't care. As soon as he finds out, he'll dump me. I ran, slip, and fell in front of a moving car. But Houkou quickly crushed his body up against the front of it, leaving a HUGE dent. All I heard was the sound of metal shearing.
I didn't look up at Houkou. I stared into the cracks on the street. They seemed so much like my heart....It was cracking too, knowing that Houkou was soon to find out.
The guy in the car died. I could no longer feel his presence, but I did feel Houkou lift off the ground and carry me inside. He set me down on the couch, and wrapped his arm around me. He pulled a blanket over us, just like we had when he was in the hospital.
"I know." he whispered. That startled me. I glanced up at his face. Even with a bloody eye patch, he was more serious than ever. "Neka....I know."
He kissed my forehead. Then moved down to my nose and lips. We kept our lips together, not moving. We didn't force into a deeper kiss and we didn't break. We were like two statues, cold and frozen...Unable to breathe.
Finally, he pulled away. I breathed slowly through my nose. He did know. And he didn't leave me to die.
He reached his hand over to my stomach and I placed my hand on his hand.
"It's going to be alright. Let's go to the doctor." He smiled, also taking deep breaths.
