Temptation
Part 1 of the Dear Diary XIII series
1: Zexion
Dear Diary,
At least I think that’s what normal humans call those books they write their “feelings” within. I may know a lot of thing about normal humans but one thing they know and practically worship is one thing nobodies can never have. Love.
However, a nobodies memories are based off of emotions they keep during their transformation to becoming a nobody. Emotions I kept rather don’t seem to help me at time such as depression, fear, innocence. But one emotion I kept never seems to be an emotion that doesn’t help. Temptation.
Every child has had to deal with temptation once, twice, maybe more in their existence. Temptation to reach into the cookie jar, even though they would get sent up to their rooms or to a corner for time out. Temptation to hit back when someone hits you. But temptation really comes into play during the teenage years.
Temptation to try drugs, to smoke, to sneak out of the house at midnight to go to a friends, or one that I never understood, temptation to fall in love. I never understood that kind of temptation, until I met Axel.
I used to think nobodies didn’t have hearts. I mean what do you think we are trying to complete? Kingdom Appendix?? Stupid question I know. But if we don’t have hearts why do I feel like this around him?
His green eyes, those strange teardrops beneath those emerald orbs, that red porcupine of hair upon his head, his fiery attitude, his annoying catchphrase, his actual power over fire *sigh* Everything about him, god its amazing.
I want to be able to tell him but its so hard. If only I could send him an illusion that I told him but that would send him fleeing.
I’ll have to tell him myself. One thing I reflect on as I write this on a blank page of my Lexicon is this. If we had hearts, he’d have stolen mine a long time ago. I sound like a love sick freak. But aren’t we all a little insane? Temptation. Words of lust can spur it and oh how that number VIII tempts me.
Axel. Surely you know what is going to happen next.
Signed,
Zexion
