i dont want to go to school i am terified of school the only friends that i've had which are only to have moved away one moved to north dakota and the other moved to freakin' CANADA!!! these were the only two people i actually talked to and i am horriable at making friends like absolutley horriable actually i just thought of an idea i am gonna focus on my studies i am entering 1oth grade in a month and since i eff'd up my ninth grade year i'm gonna become the biggest nerd. i signed up for two cool classes one fashion design but the teacher kind of scares me and the second class is game design so that kind of cheers me up also i just noticed people are scared of me not in a omg she can beat me up kind of way they're scared in a kind of omg she eats kittens for breakfast kinda scared the problem is i don't smile unless i'm talking to my friends or fake smiling to a teacher other than that half the time my face is completley expressionless thats why i don't make alot of friends also fun fact of the day i have this problem with my eye sometimes it's straight other times it's cocked not crossed COCKED i'm very self consious about it so i always keep my head down i'm supossed to get surgery but they said there's a chance i might become blind so i'm like screw that i'd rather my cock-eyed i mean at least i can freakin' see! well that's it for tonight おやすみなさい～！(good night~!)