Hello to my otaku family =D, I have created this world to share with you some of my essays,parts of essays that i think are well written,any story ideas that i need to jot down, poems etc. Basically a place to share writing so I'll try to keep it as interesting as possible kay? Thank you for stopping by,Love you lots ♥ =]
...the art on this site does not impress me as much anymore..only a few artists keep my attention...
I want to take this chance and apologize for my random absence on this site. I just feel like I have lost the strong "bond" I once had with theO. You guys remember how i was don't you?Eager, posting pics almost everyday. I miss that drive I had to share my art with you all. I just feel like my inspiration has been drained out of me and sucked into a black hole! Dramatic? yes, necessary? I think not! I've tried so hard to work on art, make something worth it,but, it just hasn't shown up yet. I feel like I've been waiting for that lightbulb to flash in my head. I have the switch to turn it on, but no matter how fast I run towards that switch, I feel as if Im getting farther away from it opposed to getting closer. It sucks cause you guys are all so god damn awesome and have treated me with such kindness and what have I given you lately? DIDDLY SQUAT!! thats what.
It sucks cause I got into this AMAZING art high school, I was one of the lucky ones to receive such a great opportunity. Im worried that I wont get back up on my feet when I most need it. I guess Im missing the need to want to be better. That frustrating nagging inside of me that says "Bitch you better go get it!!" lol,silly I know, but its what pushes me. I've drawn some sketches here and there but nothing...nothing blows me away. I don't get those amazing feeling anymore when I draw. The ones that make me feel like Im doing something worth showing, something that will make people see things the way I do, different.
So yeah, feel free to hate me or unsubscribe, honestly those 100 something subs that I have don't mean shit to me, only the ones that have supported me and such. I cant name them all but Im sure you guys know who you are. I want to start fresh maybe make a new account. I just need to jump out from this filthy sea of dull nothingness and breathe in all the wonderful things around me.
I would also like to take this chance and thank those of you who sent me gifts yesterday and wished me a happy birthday. I am soo grateful for the fact that you guys even took the time to do so. I bet I've missed a lot of bdays, and I apologize for that. I really need to find my center.
THanks for taking time to read this and understand my position
I love you all to bits
~Eileen
PS Sadly wont see much work from me since i got an Apple desktop which obviously doesn't work with my dell printer -__- so no scanning for me!!
"Just try it", she said with a giggle, her voice close up against my ear. "Follow my lead, and go with the flow. I wont bite..I promise". We were face to face now, our noses close together, and I felt her delicate hands gently pressed against my cheeks. She closed her eyes and rested her velvet lips against mine. My heart was beating like it was on speed, and we stood that way for what felt like forever, but I couldnt contain myself. My trembling lips soon gave in and joined the dance.
Her hands slowly crept down my neck and traced their way down to my waste. Soon it wasnt just my lips that had given in, but my entire body did too. Our kisses became more intense and the janitor's closet felt 10 times smaller. In a matter of minutes we were in a tight embrace with nothing but our underwear on. I tried my hardest to keep up with her movements, but i kept stumbling over the stinkin' buckets and mops.
After about 15 minutes of pleasure, I started to feel uncomfortable. She noticed that I had decided to stop this dance and stepped back, looking at me with a questioned look on her face. "Babe, whats wrong?It was all going so well", I could sense the worry and disappointment in her voice. "Im sorry..I..I just cant, its not right", I couldnt even look at her.
"I honestly thought you were different, that i had found the one person that truly accepted me for who I was and kept it that way all the way through. But no, you are just like all the other bitches that just ran away.No wonder the whole school hates you. I guess i was wrong...again." My throat felt like it was clogged with toilet paper and i couldnt speak. I just stood there like an idiot as she quickly dressed. She stormed out of the humid closet and thats when my legs went limp and i broke down.
So yah its not that great but w.e,its just a draft and i wont be turning this into an actual story. I just like writing down quick lil things. Hope you enjoyed this lesbian moment xD
Funny ass pic xD
So this is just an intro i have for this idea that popped into my mind.
It took a while for me to realize that my "Queen of the school" years were completely over. It was painful to stand and watch my entire social life rot before my eyes. I held on to everything with dear life, but it just wasnt enough, it all eventually easily slipped through my fingers. I was starting to sound like one of those stupid teenagers that spent their days crying and complaining about what a big shit their life was. Now its three months into my senior year, which I had planned to make drama free and just keep to myself, but lets just say that plan was flushed down the toilet along with the rest of my life.
I already have a scene in mind which i will submit,just keep in mind that its not what comes after this lol
What really is this “thing” we call Love? Isn’t it just another silly, four-letter word, that just so happens to make up a huge part of our vocabulary? With so many different forms of love, it is difficult to find one definition that fits all. Many devote their entire lives to find their soul mate and experience true Love. Some might even call their encounter love at first sight, but is it really possible?
I personally do not believe in Love at first sight. I believe that Love is something precious and should be treated with care. You can’t just go around telling everyone you Love them. Especially if it is someone you don’t fully know. Love is something that is slowly developed over time towards a person. The person might have beautiful features but does he/she have the personality to go with it too? Love at first sight is an extremely debatable topic and there really is no right or wrong answer.
Love is one of the many things that can drive teens crazy! I believe that the ages 14 and 16 are way too young to truly feel love. At that age, it is all an immature game. But then again, I guess it is useful to have experience in order to help you find out what person is really meant for you. But what does Love really mean when you are that young?
Love at first sight for teens has turned into lust at first sight. It really isn’t about a serious relationship anymore. It’s about getting laid, one night stands, and showing your buddies the girl’s underwear. For many teens it is difficult to fit in if you haven’t “gone out” with someone and/or have slept with them. But don’t get me wrong, not all teenagers seek pleasure from guys with hard abs or girls with “hot” bodies. Many search for personality instead and hope to find someone who is serious about their feelings too. Love cannot get anymore complicated now can it?
So now you see, this is only my opinion. Go ahead and read the essay of someone who does believe in Love at first sight. Trust me, you will get a completely different story. I myself haven’t dated and don’t feel ready for a relationship either. I would like to wait until I am more mature and can experience love the “right” way. With a partner that feels the same way as I do. In my mind and the minds of many others, the definition for Love is left blank. I feel that it should stay that way. Maybe Love has been over thought and really has no meaning. I believe Love is truly what you make of it.
I really wantd to put in as much voice as i possibly could.
Its pretty short, only five paragraphs but this essay got me a 16+(sixteen was the highest you could get). So I hopw you liked =D
I know there might be some grammar mistakes but w.e lmao
