I stand here on the edge of the world
Looking out over the horizon
Wondering what it would be like if I just took the last step
What would happen if I just disappeared?
What would he do?
How far would he go to get her back?
How long would it take him to realize that I was missing?
I stand here thinking
Thinking about what I should do
But I don't know what to do
I can't think right
I feel like crying
But why?
I look behind me
And he's standing there looking at me
He looks angry
I look back at the edge of this world
I want to jump
But it seems impossible with him watching me
Waiting for me to do something stupid like i always do
I look back and find him standing right behind me
I turn away from him
I don't want him to know I'm about to cry my heart out
He grabs my wrist and jerks me away from the edge of this world
I struggle against him
But he's stronger than me
And fighting against him is pointless
It's even obvious that he wants me to go with him
But I don't want to
I just want to end my misery
I can't let him suffer because of my own selfish reasons
I want him to be happy
I really do
But if he doesn't want her back then what does he want?
I don't know
And I could really care less what he really wants
I grab his shirt and bring close to me
Then I shove him away with enough force that he let's go of my wrist
He looks at me
I look away
I don't want to see his face before I die
I love him so much that I'll do this for him
Even at the cost of my own life
I feel like crying again
But this time I won't be able to hold back the tears
I stand here with a tear streaked face
He looks at me with a sad expression on his face
He walks over to where I'm standing
Puts his arms around my shoulders and holds me close
I cry more than I have ever cried before
I hate to think about what I'm going to do to him
But I want to do it
If not for me
Then for him and his happiness
I look up into his eyes
And see his love for me
I know he loves me because he told me once
But I never felt his love before
And I don't know how I should react to his confession
I grab onto his shirt and tell him "I'm so sorry"
Then I push him away from me
I turn around and run to the edge of this world
And jump
I fall into the darkness
My tears making a path behind me as I fall
I can hear him saying something
But I'm not really listening
I just want to end his pain
And in doing this I'm helping him get her back
I don't know how
But I just am
I'm falling into this dark abyss
The only sound is the sound of his cries for me
And my cries for release
For I will forever fall
I am forever falling