I decided to create a world for random writings of mine. Fantasy Worlds will just be used for the more serious writings.

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So found out from a friend that the Teens for Christ group here in my town was disbanded by the dude in charge. So sadly I didn't get the meeting I wanted.
Sad but I guess maybe its for the best.
I do wish it could have ended differently though. But I guess for that ot happen Dianna and Rachel would actualy have to use that organ in their skulls instead of letting it sit there and collect dust.

Whatever I guess. Soon I will have no contact with them since now all the do is bitch about me and my mom behind our backs. Wonder what kind of lies they are telling....At least about every single person in this town knows that 1) Rachel is bat-crap crazy and can't be trusted for ANYTHING and 2) Dianna is immature and an airhead.

SO now I'm going to focus on getting my stupid drivers license, college, figuring out how to continue Karate class with no teacher and finding a good place to go running at.
Wish me luck!

NOOOOOO!!!!!

OMG! My most favorite Uncle of all time had a heart attack!! *runs around in a panic* My aunt said it was mild and he's he's going to have bypass surgery monday.
I hope he'll be okay, I love my Uncle Gilley!! *sniff sniff*

On a happier note, Nacht got a queen size bed today. Its actually mom and dads old water bed that we put a queen size mattress in. The headbord of the bed has a couple of cabinets and yes, he has already tried to hid cookies there. He got caught though XD

So something rather creepy happened last night. My dog always sleeps under my bed and when I got out of the shower last night I thought he was under the bed asleep so I just went to bed, here's what happened:

Nacht comes in with Stuie

Me looks up "what?"
Nacht: Brought your dog in
Me:He wasn't in here before?
Nacht gives me a funny look: No, he was with me
Me: Then what the hell was making all those noises under the bed?
Nacht; O_______O *jumps on my bed*
............................
Nacht: Maybe it was a cat?
Me: Indie and Lyon are upstairs and Koko is right next to me.
Nacht: O_O
pause

Me: Maybe what I heard was the cats running around upstairs?
another pause

me: Yeah. uh lets just go with that.
nacht: yeah

Have yet to figure out what the noises were O_O

Ow

Okay just had practice at the auditorium. It went well all things considering.
Dianna siad she was having the tumblers practice before us tonight so we would have the mats there tonight.
Wrong.
She had dancers there tonight. No tumblers. No mats.
So we practiced without.
Oh my god.
Have you ever fallen when on a stage?
it hurts like hell.
And I have it easy. I only fall once. The guys fall every time.
So by the time we stopped we were all so sore and bruised.
Whatever. We did well. Getting the little kinks worked out. Like me NOT hitting the guys hard (seriously! I don't hit THAT hard!.....do I?)
Leo is coming over tomorrow to work with the music.

Oh I was so happy tonight! I made stir fry for nacht and I for dinner with leftover steak from last night. Well I tried something different, I had the meat simmer in the man with Braggs (basically soy sauce, tastes the same) olive oil, onion powder, garlic powder, black pepper and balsomic vinegar.
It tasted so good!!! I want more but I think we ate it all
But damn I'm proud. I've never used balsomic vinegar like that before XD
I'm on a roll with cooking today, I made homemade mac and cheese for lunch with homemade hot chocolate and it all turned out perfectly XD
Why am I so happy about this? I don't measure anything. I throw stuff in till it looks good. And it usually turns out.
Mmmmm Hot coco sounds good *runs off to get some*

Oh My God. Theses people are adults?

My god.
Dianna told us tonight that at the recital there was no way she could make sure none of the kids had any food backstage. It just isn't possible.
AND she's acting like what we had to do with Rachel was a personal grudge thing and we are acting like brats.
.............................
Tyler and Leo are acting more adult like than the damn "adults"
I can't believe how childish Dianna is being! My god are we three years old again?!
Tyler and Leo said they would search the kids to make sure there wasn't any food.

If the "kids" can take this seriously why the hell can't the adults?
I'm terrified that I'll have a reaction sunday night at the recital. When I have a reaction I have to stay in the ER for 4-6 HOURS and then when I get to go home I have to be woken up every 4 hours for more meds. And then it take me 5-10 days to get completly better.
And that if the reaction isn't very bad.
Not to mention how sore I am from the damn shots and I.Vs
Then dealing with the damn side affects from the meds. The one medication makes me very puffy and I have to take a super high dose and slowly back it down to nothing. the other medication makes me extremely hungry and tired. And I mean tired, as in can't even hold a book up tired.

DAmnit!! This isn't fair!! Mom was ready to pull me out of the recital because of the danger but I refuse. Yes I'm a stubborn brat. But damnit! We put a lot of work into our demonstration! Leo made about 4 different fights scenes before he settled on one (and he still adds a few little things about every practice)
I'm so scared. I don't want to go through another reaction. My throat hurts so much afterwards that all I can eat is some soup, ice cream and mac and cheese.
Not to mention I's have to back on the nebulizer for the chest pain I just got to the point I don't need the damn nebulizer. Plus mom used all my meds.
And that another thing! I'm so sick I always forget to take my regular meds so then I'm thrown completely off course and have to go through days of horrible non stop pain!

I have a sick feeling something very bad will happen sunday
DAMNIT DAMNIT DAMNIT!! I CAN NOT HAVE ANOTHER FUCKING REACTION!!!!!
I have to re-arrange my room and Nacht's room cause he's getting a new bed tomorrow or the day after so I have to figure out how the hell to fit my desk in my room (its currently in Nacht's room cause my bookscase's take up so much space)

Damn it all to hell!! I have stuff to do!! Were still painting the upstairs and I refuse to miss out on that! Not to mention I've taken over all the laundry cause I don't like the way everyone else does it (they fold everything wrong and I always end up missing clothes and the sort the laundry completely wrong) plus I have to shampoo the carpet in the family room, hall, back hall, and possibly Nacht's room again. ANd I have to shampoo the couch. All of that is MY JOB and I HATE it when I have to have someone else do my job! It drives me crazy!

God damn it I'm so scared. What the hell do I do now? I can't let every on the karate team down. Especialy not after all that work we put into it!
God I don't know what the hell to do now. I'm so freaked out I can't even think straight. There's no way I'm sleeping tonight. And that another thing, my last reaction was bad. Really bad. So bad that I refused to sleep with the lights off for WEEKS. Actually it was proabaly about a month later I could sleep with the lights off but I had to have two lamps in my room on all night. And yes. I slept with all my plushies and my teddy bear. Fucking 19 years old and refused to sleep without my stuffed animals and nightlights. And if that wasn't bad enough I had to carry at least 1 plushie in my bag wherever I went. How pathetic is that?
Okay. I'm just going to go get some cookies and an icepack for my eye and start re-arranging my room tonight.
Yeah. that sounds good. Moving hundreds of books might calm me down a bit.

Paint

SO we decided to paint the upstairs today.
Here's a little bit of advice, never put paint texture stuff in teh paint. It makes a HUGE mess when rolling the paint on the walls. I was covered in red paint. Nacht said I looked like an escapee from a horror film. Thanks bro -_-

Nacht's been sick since thursday. He felt so rotten he skipped karate class O_O
Leo said it was fine but nacht has to be at class tuesday, even if he's dead. Not sure how helpful that would be....

Man! I even have paint in my hair!! Damnit! That's going to be a pain to get out!!

Leo showed in class thurs how you fight in WKF. I really hope we get to do that again. Tyler went up against Leo, when the match ended the score was 0-55. Leo dominated. He was hyper that night and when that happens.....lets just say he moves very fast O___________O

I also got a little mad at Leo thursday. Tyler was asking why Leo always picks on him and not me and Leo told him it was cause I'm a girl. *seethe*

Well Nacht needs the comp and I need a shower. Stupid paint. How the hell am I going to get it all out????