"It sounds easy but it's not. You lose your humanity, and you die. When you are reborn as a demon everything that you once knew about your loved ones is gone. That's one of the prices to becoming a demon," Hyaku told me, he was stopped near the door as if leaving me here was going to make me drop the matter.
I stood up, feeling rather defiant. "So, what? I'm supposed to just sit back and stay locked up in this house forever while you protect me from attacks and whatnot?" I asked, anger coating my words. "One of those times, protecting me is going to kill you."
"I would give my life for you, and you know that," he told me, looking over into my eyes. His hand dropped from the door when he realized I was not going to drop the issue.
I went over to him, placing a hand on his cheek, "I know you would, and that means the world to me. But, how would you feel if I gave up my life for you? Would you want to keep on living? Because I know I wouldn't if you died. I don't want to loose you, and I don't want you to see me become brittle with human illnesses."
"I would rather endure that than watch you stripped of your humanity. Your feelings of the people you loved will change."
"You are the only one I care about, and if we are going to finally be on the same playing field, what's the big deal? I don't think anything that happens will make me love you any less," I told him honestly, looking into his eyes, seeing the fear and doubt he held.
"I don't want to take the chance when we don't know the outcome."
"Just because you can't see all of the players in the game doesn't mean you have to stop playing," I used an old analogy I had heard from awhile ago. "It's my life. Please let me have a say in what happens with it." I was practically begging with him to see things from my point of view.
"I want to think this over," he told me.
"Fair enough," I nodded. "I won't push you."
"Thank you," he said, grabbing my hand and kissing it softly.
I took the opportunity to lean up and kiss him, hoping maybe in some twisted way, he'd be able to feel how sure I was about this. I didn't have any doubts with whom I want to be with.
