I signed away my soul today.
And yet I don't know why.
It was so easy to give away.
As I've already begun to die.
Though it returned again to me.
But it was all a lie.
For it was filled with coldness.
And trapped in a darkened sky.
For I've taken a new position.
To save my loved ones from the night.
And now I am alone forever.
Forsaken by the light.
Condemned to do horrible things.
Burdened throughout life.
I just wanted to protect everything.
But it came at such a price.
I know I appear so normal.
But inside my mind I cry.
I have to hope no one notices,
that this demon soul is mine.
If love was once lost, it was ours.
And now I can finally see, that you must go.
I wish you hadn’t told me, that you still loved her.
I wish I couldn’t hear it, I didn’t want to know.
The clock out of time, was once us.
Now alone as I sit, I can’t believe you’re gone.
I wish that I could fix it, that I didn’t make you leave.
I wish that I wanted it, to make up what I did wrong.
The birth of the new, was all just for me.
I can’t believe this, that I’ve found someone new.
I never believed it could happen, that I would be accepted.
I never could have foreseen it, I’d be with someone other than you.
The day is finally over, that never should have ended.
And time is empty, without what once was true.
It’s over in a heartbeat, what was us together.
And yet I still think of it, I still think of you.
I know that I’ve been wishing, that you were still with me.
I wish I could believe, that I could make it right.
Next to him, you're face is all I see.
And I'm still dreaming of you tonight.
In what is left of our memory.
Inside the emptiness of self, I sit longing for the answer to a question still unknown.
And inside this realm of sorrow, I weep with bitter tears because I am alone.
Sleep becomes a haze of visions; I wander toward the dimmest light.
Answers are spawned from hellish dreams; I see how I can make it right.
Walking this path of rotted corpses, I become another morbid manifestation.
With a dying rose held in my palm, I open myself to destructive desecration.
Open my bleeding soul to starlight, I take a razor in each of my hands.
There is only the need for vengeance; I must take it while I can.
For inside the eternity of myself, I sit waiting for the question to an answer I now know.
And inside this realm of retribution, I no longer weep for what I cannot hold.
Sleep becomes my only salvation, I stretch onward toward the night.
Answers are wrought of my own hatred, I just feel so right.
Walking this road of living spirits, I undergo another alteration.
With a blooming rose cupped in my palm, I allow myself a new motivation.
Open my raging soul to moonlight, I feel my weapons slice my hands.
The only answer for me is vengeance; I will take it because I can.
You never should have tried it.
You should have known.
You can’t lead me, I won’t follow.
The only rules I know are my own.
I’ll take this course alone.
There isn’t anything you can do.
Nothing left that you can say.
What’s done is done, it’s too late.
And this is the price you’ll have to pay.
Watch my back as I walk away.
I’m not empty anymore.
So do not tell me what to do.
It’s done and over, now I’m leaving.
Who I am is my absolute truth.
And I’m not going to change for you.
I will not be who you want me to be.
So let me be what I decide.
The years have passed, and nothing lasts.
And I know what I am inside.
I will no longer hide.
I’ve found what I’ve been looking for.
Not from laws divine.
But by my strength, and by my heart.
And sooner or later things will be fine.
Because I’m holding on to truth.
And keeping what is mine.
Contemplation.
Disintegration.
Fall away from me.
Leave me alone.
Infiltration.
Past frustration.
Taking me away.
And I am left alone.
Concentration.
Desecration.
Destroy a piece of me.
And here I am alone.
Consecration.
Abhoration.
I stand for myself.
I stand alone.
