I fell that I haven't been updating on my life much lately, so I might as well now.
lately i've just been a blank slate. no expressions or anything. the only thing i have felt lately is a mental breakdown i had recently, but of course, people say it's the hormones going insane. it might be that, it might not... >>'
i have a feeling my mum is scared of me. coz of what i've been doing lately. i don't wanna talk about it though. you know me. just bottling up my feelings ^^
am currently in my English class. have finished my work. surprised my battery power for my laptop isn't down that much. i've got... 83% remaining. and that's good for me. usually my laptop would've died by now, or at least have been below half. i'm in a class called Y.E.P (Youth Empowerment Program) for some reason. apparently, to be a leader, you need to have good mental health and physical health. social health is good, too. i have neither of these. mental health? i've been diagnosed with a few things >>. physical health? i hardly ever play sport, even in school. i'd much rather be camped up in my room. social health? I have friends... but again, i prefer to be in my room, writing stories, listening to music and just staring off into space. i hate going to the shopping center. i just feel uncomfortable. oh gosh, i'm spilling everything... *Takes deep breath*.
anyways, what i'm trying to say is, i've been selected to go on a camp (I'm 1 of 8 people in the whole freaking school who have been selected) about leadership. it goes for a weekend, and from the pictures i've seen on this camp, i get to drive a tank. once in a life time oppurtunity. it's fully funded, so that's a bonus. the downfall is that it's in winter. a camp in winter? not looking forward to that, but i was hoping for a camp this year, so yippee. i hope it'll be on my birthday, so i don't have to deal with the crap lovely 'happy birthdays' and all that stuff. i'm just a year older. i don't see any importance of it. although i do appreciate the fact that people actually remember it. i hardly ever do. last year? this is the scene that played out.

Sis (In the middle of the freaking morning): HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
Me: Mmm-what?
Sis: happy birthday.
me: wait... it's my birthday?
Sis: yeah, it is!
Me (Walks in a 'zombie trance' to lounge room, where my mum is sitting with her iPad): Mum? is it my birthday?
mum: same as it is every year, <insert random nickname. use your imagination. KRUNK>. Happy birthday.
Me: oh. ok.
yeah, my memory is pretty bad. my mum had her ipad in the car this morning, playing music, and i was adding music to her playlist. she wanted a Justin Bieber song on there (Love Yourself... i think...) and i had to ask what the name of the song was. she said 'love yourself', so i went to go find it. i forgot the name and asked again. she said the name again. then it completely forgot it again. she sighed and said it again. the song was, of course, at the very bottom of the list. *sigh*.
OH and i had a Black Butler marathon a few days ago. it was SO COOL!!! Grell and Undertaker, my 2 favorite characters, were in it. even mum and dad were watching. it was the one after (SPOILER ALERT) Grell revealed himself as a grimm reaper (I think it was after that one...), and he went to go lay on the grass. he was put in a coffin. and taken to Undertaker. then Grell took his clothes and buried him in salt. WTF??
it was cool. i didn't even know that Undertaker was a Grimm Reaper. no, seriously. i didn't know. either that or he somehow got in the library.
I STILL HAVE THE 2nd DISC TO WATCH!!!
I hope the circus one is on that... i love it in the book!
i reset Undertale again and named myself KRUNK. please, do not ask. it's from a YouTuber i recently discovered. i forgot his username... but his reaction to meeting Sans was hilarious. the first person i have ever seen actually double over with laught after the fart thing. slow clap.
I've been working on my AU, especially the part in Soulkey's perspective (He's my ghost ^^) if you guys wanna read it, let me know. will also put up a picture of Echo Sans (My Sans), if i had actually remembered to save it. BUCK, I FORGOT TO SAVE IT. I'M SUCH AN IDIOT!!!
it was really good, too ;-;
oh, well. so, how've you guys been? anything you want me to post about? seriously, this website needs more activity. it's so blank lately...
IS ANYONE THERE-ere-ere-ere?? HELLO-o-o-o-o???
(It's echoing, for those of you who are confused.