I really feel like I'm losin it. By that I mean everything is becoming so overwhelming. I need to get out and o somewhere. Where? I don't know just somewhere away from things and people.

My stupid boyfriend kept me up all night. (well he's not stupid but ya know). I know I could have easily just stopped talking to him and what not. But given the situation and the subject matter it would have seemed kinda rude or uncaring in way. He wanted to talk about his feelings since our last date. what I can't figure out is why did he wait so late. It didn't make it even easier when he started saying things I didn't know how to respond to so there were a lot of awkward silences. But after a while, we went on talking til one int he morning. Which would't have been a problem if I didn't have to get up at 4 to get ready for school. The weird thing is I was able to wake up on time, but when I woke up I was sooo full of energy. But as soon as I put foot on school grounds I was like so drained. I felt like a zombie...but without the whole rotting and being dead thing.... in fact my eyes are still sleepy. Today has been an uuuh day. Especially since in the morning I was anticipating spending some face to face time with my boyfriend but then a friend came and kinda ruined the moment and made it extremely awkward. =_= I know she didn't do it on purpose but hey. She still did it. To be honest we have no classes or anything together so yeah. It's not like I could o to his house because he lives pretty far from me but whatever. So that didn't make me feel any better, in fact I was a bit upset for awhile. But I'm over it now. I guess I'll just have to wait until after school.

But moving on with tings. I know I don't post frequently. But that's just cuz whatever. I apologize for those who have been looking at my post and been wanting to see something new. But ya know, I'm going to be honest, I won't post something new everyday or every week for that matter. But I will try to post something new every once in a while.

I might post something else later on today. In fact I'm sure I will....maybe...