Mood: Better
Listening to: Nothing cuz iTunes can't play crap while importing CDs -_-
Today's Word: Darth Vader...wait that's two...
Today's Video Game: Ocarina of Time
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Still haven't watched Super Mario RPG~~~!
I'm feeling much better than I did this morning, though band was crap. Getting ready to leave on a college road trip (HOW EXCITING) tomorrow. So basically pulling an all-nighter and sleeping in the car.
So my birthday's on Saturday. Guess how I'm spending it. Tutoring and at a party that's not for me -_-
Making this post short cuz I need to burn CDs. I'll probably be posting during the road trip (at least one of the hotels has free wifi)so... Tata~!
~Mattie
WARNING: This is just me ranting about my life. I feel like crap today so it's not going to be pretty. If you don't want to read about my problems, please don't read on. I'll be writing a hopefully more level-headed post tonight.
I feel like I've been run over by a moose absolute shiitake today.
My course selection at school has given me hell. I've wanted to take art class since the beginning of junior year when it became available, and they didn't give it to me last year (god knows why, I didn't ask). Well, I put it for it this year, and they didn't give it to me because OF COURSE, the only two art classes they offer are at 1st and 5th period, the two periods where I have my Advanced Placement classes! And though I would never drop my AP English course (I'm hopefully going to be an English major, and I've been waiting for this course since freshman year), I WOULD consider dropping AP American Government and Politics because, quite honestly, I am not at ALL interested in American Government and Politics (when I say I'm considering moving out of the country, I am being serious) and the only reasons I took the class were a) because the teacher is amazing and b) because I took AP History sophomore and junior year, loved both those classes, and wanted to finish it out.
Of course, my mom would NEVER let me drop either AP course for a measly little Track 2 course in art, not even if drawing is basically my life and I've been super excited for art since freshman year. Since it looks bad on COLLEGE APPLICATIONS.
COLLEGE. I NEED TO STAB IT AND IT NEEDS TO DIE. These stupid college searches and colleges visits and college apps have been making my life a living hell for almost this whole summer. Everything I do, it has to look good for college. Why can't I just live my life the way I want to? Of course, it doesn't help that the one college I really like has a "strict admissions process"...
Back to course selection. Now I have two study halls and god forbid that because I'll look like a lazy student. -_- I mean, yes, I want to get rid of my study hall at 3rd period, because that is way too early in the day to be doing nothing. But there's really nothing for me to take! I've been offered Track 2 classes, which I can't really take cuz I'm NUMBER TWO IN THE FRIGGIN CLASS. Though, I have considered taking a strings class, but since it's music it's counted as Track 2, the horrors, my mom is freaking out at me.
She wants me to take both strings and Shakespeare, filling up both my study halls. Well, no, I don't want to take Shakespeare, because even though I adore Iago more than anything, from what I've heard the class is basically reading Shakespeare plays, writing papers on them, and sometimes memorizing sonnets. NO. NO MEMORIZING SONNETS. If I'm going to memorize anything Shakespeare, it will be one of Iago's many soliliquies in which he describes his plans for MASS MURDER. NOT A SONNET.
Plus, I really liked eighth period study last year. It was a relaxing way to end the day. And all my friends already took Shakespeare last year, so I will be in a boring class with people I don't know. (stabs something)
But it's all about college this and college that and none of it's about what I want anymore. I convinced my mom to let me volunteer at an SPCA by saying it would look good on my college app, cuz god forbid she let me do it otherwise.
The reason I have to stick with band all year--being pit captain looks great on college apps.
I'm an absolute wreck. This is the reason I always feel like I'm sick. My mom thinks it's because I get no exercise, but no, it's because of all this stress and pressure to be what everyone else wants and not what I want. But I can't tell her, "GUESS WHAT MOM. YOU'RE MAKING ME DEPRESSED." because she'd start yelling at me about how she is SO supportive of my writing and my art and so on, even though all she's been doing is treating it as a means to an end--me getting into college!! I'm being FORCED to write about the Seventh Degree.
The Seventh Degree is my baby. I am so proud of all the work I've been putting into it. When it's gotten to the point that I don't WANT to write part of it because it's going to be judged for college (so, of course, I can't write anything about Damien being gay, oh no) and read by my mom whose going to want me to change everything, it's bad. Really bad. I also wanted to send in Famille, the oneshot I wrote about the Revolutionary War with Mattie and Arthur, but, see, I wrote "damn" and "wanker" and "bloody hell" in it, so my mom's not going to let me send it in. -_- I'm afraid for her to look at it because of the cursing and the slight traces of yaoi and just the whole depressing premise...
I really don't know what to do. I've been crying all morning. I just...I dunno, I just need to talk to someone. I realized last night just how important my Hetalia RP was in keeping me from going off the deep end, as I lay there in bed crying and not knowing any other way to cheer myself up than thinking about Hetalia, which barely helped at all anyway. Hetalia has saved me so many times in the past year, which sounds really stupid but it's absolutely true. If it's failing me, then I think I'm screwed...
If you actually read that whole thing, please don't think badly on me for being a total mess >////< I'm just so disoriented and tired and stressed...I need to find a way to feel better, is all, but it's hard...
OH LOOK, DIALIMA TU KAFE IS ON. (immediately fangirl spazzes)
Thanks so much for sticking with me. I'll have a less crappy, slightly more uplifting post tonight (I hope...I have band...) So, well, tata~! ^^;
~Mattie
Mood: LAAAAAA
Listening to: Nephew (no link, too much going on ><)
Today's Word: Meme
Today's Video Game: Super Mario Sunshine
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Put off watching Super Mario RPG cuz I'm afraid of the pirate...
Finished Super Mario Sunshine by NCS, started Ocarina of Time again. Love that game <3
Banner's not gonna be here today, hopefully tomorrow I'll have time to scan and finish it.
Gotta go...chatting and typing on this incredibly small screen SUCKS...
Tata~!
~Mattie
Which is an ironic title, cuz he's in the Seventh Degree, but he's number Five, but number Three is (evil grin)
(gets hit by a brick)
Damien: SHUT UP >//////////<
Not my real post, I decided to do this super fun quiz post thing and let you lovely people know more about Damien!! ^^ So let's go~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!
Damien: Someone save me?
1. You must choose only ONE of your OCs. Do it again if you wanna use another OC.
2. Your OC must answer every question as truthfully as possible.
3. Title the journal as "OCs Quiz (your OCs name)".
4. When you're done, tag as many people as you want.
1. Hi! What's your real name and nickname?
Damien Reul. ((lack of accent NOOOOOOOO)) And don't even try to come up with a nickname for me, because I will shoot you.
Fujian: XIAO HUA MAO~! <3
I SAID I WILL SHOOT YOU!!
2. Interesting... what's your current age?
Twenty-eight.
3. Uh huh. What's your favorite food?
If Fujian made it, then it's good. I like angel hair...
4. And your favorite drink?
White wine.
5. Confession time! Who's your crush/lover?
(sigh) ...Must I say his name?
Fujian: You know you love me, wo de xiao hua mao. <3
WO HEN NI. Moving on.
6. Aww! Have you two kissed yet?
Er... (blushes slightly) Well...
Fujian: Does that question really need to be answered? (wraps an arm around Damien's shoulders)
THIS IS NOT YOUR INTERVIEW, YOU FRUITY IMBECILE.
7. Classic question! What's your favorite color?
Red. (pulls on spectacular flashy boots)
8. Who's your favorite author?
He's a playwright...and I can't believe I'm saying this...but Shakespeare...
Iago: HA!
HE BROUGHT ME THAT MOSTROSITY. WHY? (points at Iago)
9. Now what's your biggest fear?
Must I say it? It's so cheesy...
UM: I'll bring Fujian out.
(mortified look) I...well...not...being socially accepted... (hangs head) I sound like a teenage girl...
10. *stifles a giggle* I'm not laughing *bursts out laughing* Sorry. Any siblings?
Whoever's interviewing me doesn't know who they're dealing with...And I'm an only child.
11. Who's your hero?
I don't really have a hero...
12. Ok, who is your worst enemy?
Fujian. (annoyed face of annoyance)
13. What would you do if your hero and your worst enemy got together?
Fujian and nobody getting together...I'd enjoy it, if only to watch Fujian suffer. (grin)
Fujian: STOP PRETENDING YOU DON'T LOVE ME TT~TT
14. Interesting... what would you do if you met your creator?
Probably murder her for all the crap she's put me through...
UM: (runs)
15. Okay, I'll contact them right now. Done! Now, what do you want to be when you grow up?
I'm twenty-eight. Does that really not count as grown-up?
16. What's your worst nightmare?
Um...well...that would, er...that would be... (whisper) Fujian leaving me >///<
Fujian: I KNEW YOU LOVED ME! (glomps Damien)
17. What's your lifelong dream?
(pushes Fujian into a pit of doom) Probably traveling the world, without getting shot at or bombed or other such things.
18. What would you do if your lifelong dream came true?
I would...travel the world...and not get shot at...or bombed...or other such things...
19. Ok, where's your favorite place to relax?
Playing the piano.
20. Last question! What do you spend most of your time doing?
Spying, pretending to be who I'm not, conning people, playing the piano, getting shot at, and so on...
21. We're done! Now tag whoever you want. DO IT!
YOU. (points at the person reading) I TAG YOU. SO YOU CAN SHARE IN MY MISERY.
Fujian: Don't be miserable! (glomps Damien again)
(is glomped) STOP RAISING THE FLAMBOYANCE LEVELS OF THIS POST DAMMIT >///<
Mood: Already covered
Listening to: Vector Point Engineering Water Buffalo
Today's Word: SHROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOM!!!!!!!
Today's Video Game: Super Mario RPG
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(Caution: Slightly long, very delirious posting ahead~~!)
Today's was a true day when I didn't talk to anyone (I actually had someone text me last night after I posted...and made me lose the game, THANKS, emogit -_-). TheO has seemed less busy as of late...I dunno ^^;
I spent all of today watching LPs and drawing. Finished Chuggaaconroy's Paper Mario LP today, started and got about halfway through his Super Mario RPG one. Actually, the Super Mario RPG LP is the only one of his that I have never watched all the way through. I just could not stand the graphics; I know that it's "impressive for the time" and "3D on the SNES is amazing" but GOD it's so pixely and icky and half the time I can't tell what I'm seeing...
That's a problem when I'm trying to draw little chibi versions of the bosses. Since I don't think I've said it before, all the bookmarks I've made are bosses from LPs that Chuggaa has done, starting with Earthbound and going all the way up to Pikmin 2. So far I've completed drawings for Earthbound, Mother 1, and Paper Mario, and I've completed bookmarks for Earthbound and about half of Mother 1. But I'm straying from the topic...
Not only does this game (Super Mario RPG) move so fast that I've had times where I'm not finished coloring one boss and another pops up, but the graphics are so nasty that I've needed to use the Mario Wiki to find decent pictures!! (headdesk) This is why I've never finished the LP! It's got nothing to do with the quality of Chuggaa's commentary, it's the game itself! I think the Paper Mario series definitely outclassed it, but then again, those were for later systems with beautiful graphic capabilities, who I am to talk?
GUYZ GUESS WHAT THE BOSS I'M ON IS. GUESS GUESS GUESS GUESS I BET YOU CAN'T GUESS.
A friggin PIRATE, that's what!! (headdesk) Jonathon Jones...Jones...JONES?!
NOOOOOOES BROSKI WHY HAS YOU GONE TO TEH DARK SIDEZ?!
I'm delirious~!
Speaking of broskis, I had an internal battle between AmericaxJapan and RussiaxAmerica today... I love Ameripan but RussiaxAmerica is so cuuuuuuute >///< Maybe it's gonna turn into one of those one-sided obsessions of mine...Like Franada...I still don't really ship France with anyone cuz that wrecks the one-sided angstiness...SORRY FRANCIS >///<
I drew an awesome picture of Mattie surrounded by ghost Pokemon today. I hope I don't ruin it with colored pencils ^^;
Oh! Expect a banner for this world soon, as soon as I get my hands on a laptop with scanning software and work on the background in Paint.net. And speaking of expecting things, depending on how motivated I get, the Library's gonna be updated soon with something I'm being forced to write writing for my college app! It's about Damien, if you remember from my last real post...
Anyways, gonna go. I might actually sleep soon...I'm feeling pretty tired >///< Tata~!
~Mattie
