Mood: WUT?
Listening to: Dialima tu Kafe
Today's Word: WUT?
Today's Video Game: Earthbound
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What happened today?
Alright, I don't want to sound like I'm bragging about myself, but ever since freshman year, EVERYONE, teachers and parents included, has told me that I can get into any school I want. I'm pretty smart. Yay. And I have lived up to today thinking that getting into a college won't be a problem, it's PICKING one that will be the problem. And honestly, I'm all but sold on Princeton.
But today on the way home from another college, my mom told me I should think about other places in case Princeton isn't "a possibility". And I was like, uh...a financial possibility? And she was like, no, cuz they have a real strict admissions process and I might not get in.
THANK YOU. THANK YOU FOR BUILDING UP MY CONFIDENCE AND CRAP THESE FOUR YEARS AND THEN DEMOLISHING IT IN A DAY.
I get really touchy when talking about my smarts. And when I'm finally starting to feel a little comfortable with that fact that, yes, I am smart, she says something like that and I'm like, "...WHAT?! YOU TOLD ME I COULD GET INTO HARVARD WITH NO PROBLEM WTF?! NOW I HAVE TO BE WORRIED AND CRAP!"
(headdesk headdesk headdesk) I'm having a crap day.
I also had a major fail at Earthbound (like, MAJOR FAIL) and my brother commentated through the whole thing and acted like a jerk...I almost punched him cuz I was already pissed about the college thing...He's all up in my face about how much farther he is in the game and I'm like, "THAT'S CUZ YOU NEVER LEAVE ME ALONE."
I hate playing one player games in front of people...And I want to be a Let's Player. Ha.
And I've been informed I have tutoring tomorrow. Well, gee, maybe I shouldn't go, since I'm obviously not as smart as I thought I was. Then I have band. I HATE BAND. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT. I leave every practice feeling like crap! But I can't quit! (headdesk) I just...need to have a sick day tomorrow. Really badly.
GUYZ I GET TO GO VISIT COLLEGES IN NEW ENGLAND THIS WEEKEND. MAYBE WE SHOULD GO TO HARVARD SO I CAN STARE LONGINGLY AT THE GATES.
I think I should go to sleep...Maybe that will help...Sorry I'm acting so pissy today guys...
Tata~!
~Mattie
