Here's a band I've recently found and this song is probably what can sum up how im feeling right now.

So let me just try
To explain what's been on my mind
In my defense there's some things I wish I'd never said
There's a thousand things that you'll never get
If a picture's worth a thousand words
I'll picture an invitation to let you in
I wish you could see inside my head
To answer all of the questions that you have
And I'm sorry about the promises
I said I would but I never did
I was wrong
I wish you could see inside my head
I've got the time
But I've got priorities
Like trying to save the world sometimes
By telling stories
But they're bound to keep you up at night
It won't work until you put up a fight
It takes a little patience to get it right
I wish you could see inside my head
To answer all of the questions that you have
And I'm sorry about the promises
I said I would but I never did
I was wrong
I wish you could see inside my head
I want to help but I can't help myself
I want to help but I can't help myself
I wish you could see inside my head
To answer all of the questions that you have
And I'm sorry about the promises
I said I would but I never did
I was wrong
I wish you could see inside my head
I wish you could see inside my head