Welcome, friends! This is basically my life update world, where I pour all the crap going on in my life at the moment. I don't expect people to give this place much attention, to be honest. Well, make yourself at home, anyway!

Dazed and Confused

My birthday is in 9 days. I'm going to be 18, and I'm so scared I can hardly stand it. What am I going to do? I've hardly even began to prepare myself for the responsibilities that will no doubt be thrust upon me. And, knowing my dad, there will be many - and no mercy. He doesn't understand my fear. I'm sure he was nervous about becoming an adult, but it's different for me. I don't know how to do anything. I can't go out and buy things and talk to people and that sort of thing. I can't. I've tried. Driving, getting a job, having to convey what I need to other people, it's all too scary. As pathetic as that sounds, it's my reality. I can't just get over it. This isn't something you just get over. This isn't something you can just say, "Well, I'm going to have to do it anyway, so might as well!" It's legitimate crippling fear. Just the thought of it makes me hysterical, gives me the sickest feeling in my stomach, makes me want to cry. I don't know what I'm going to do. I don't know how I'm going to get there. I don't know what I need to do to find out. I'm completely clueless. I'm completely hopeless. I can't carry on this way, but this is all I know how to be. Am I doomed to fail?

heh heh ^^;

I dunno if you guys could tell, but I had a bit of trouble uploading Matthew to my writing world. Things kept going wrong XD First, when I meant to preview it, I accidentally published it. Then, I published it with out proof reading it, AND THEN, I published it to the wrong world. Can you believe my luck? Well, anyway, it's up now, so go give it a read!

Heavy Sigh

Of course, with all good things, there must be a bad. This stupid scanner keeps disconnecting from the computer. It's wireless, so I have to sync it with the wifi, but it's NOT WORKING AND IT'S REALLY FRUSTRATING BECAUSE I CAN'T FIGURE OUT WHY

It's just like AGH TECHNOLOGY

PTERODACTYL SCREECH

I GOT A SCANNER AND I'M SUPER EXCITED
IT'S ALL SET UP AND READY TO GO LETS DO THIS THING
I'M LEGIT SO HAPPY RIGHT NOW I COULD BREAK DANCE OR SOMETHING

AWW YEEEAH

A bit of a short post today, but I might be getting a scanner! Yay! I've needed one for the longest time, and I'm super excited! I may finally be able to post more drawings!! Look forward to it, friends! c: