restless

restless in the sense
of lack of sleep i am this
now i keep going regardless of
if i have some kind of future
i cannot sleep ever calls
come from every direction and
different ways i answer them
and then i fall unconscious but
i never rest though i see people
come and go i stay right here
i'm tired of everything so
violent and destructive i have
really become so time wastes
and forever i'm lost

well today at school some dude tried to mess up my hair and since i wasn't having i good day i tapped his stomach and when he looked down i punched him on his face then i said sorry bad day then i walked away and he was all dazed which later i thought it was funny but lately i have just been provoked to take bad decisions like this

My Heart

i feel that it's heavy
i don't know how i will recover
i think i'm alone for sure now
by myself wishing for something
wishing for someone to come
help me so that i can leave
so i can escape from this
take it all away and maybe i
will be healed my words are
only words and mean many
different things the beginning
is only an explanation and the
end is the result i wish
not always am i happy nor sad
angry or destroyed or confused
sometimes i'm just simply lost
lost into the darkness that covers
everyone along with me highly
concentrated on taking me away
away from everything i care for and
love taking me away from everything
good bye or hold on because my
dear life is at the edge for life
is a narrow path where we can fall from the
edges at the sides let me make it
through many more obstacles like
i have always been able to
for my gift is strong and i
use it well and i will help those
lost on my way so just hold on
please don't give up

Your Shadow

i have been watching you
even before we met
every day i knew who you
were and i realized we were
alike not very different
and though for a time
i was meaningless to you
i was able to befriend you
i was your shadow you
reflected me i was you
and that is how it all worked
even all my strength and
decisions weren't able to
help you it seems you and
i we are the same you are
someone i am part of i
follow you to learn and i
have done that so and
confusion has filled my mind
in many times but i was able
to understand that life
is something you can't run
away from only go through
things come at you fast so
one has to be swift and fast
but always move forward and
keep the tempo keep the pace
though sometimes it will be
disrupted when this happens
pray for strength and if nothing
gives you strength pray to yourself
you will grant yourself power to keep
moving and thus all this happens
there has to be times when one is
left behind but pain isn't enough
to stop you only pain will help
you and in the end you will
find yourself not alone because
you were ahead of everyone else

Your Shadow

i have been watching you
even before we met
every day i knew who you
were and i realized we were
alike not very different
and though for a time
i was meaningless to you
i was able to befriend you
i was your shadow you
reflected me i was you
and that is how it all worked
even all my strength and
decisions weren't able to
help you it seems you and
i we are the same you are
someone i am part of i
follow you to learn and i
have done that so and
confusion has filled my mind
in many times but i was able
to understand that life
is something you can't run
away from only go through
things come at you fast so
one has to be swift and fast
but always move forward and
keep the tempo keep the pace
though sometimes it will be
disrupted when this happens
pray for strength and if nothing
gives you strength pray to yourself
you will grant yourself power to keep
moving and thus all this happens
there has to be times when one is
left behind but pain isn't enough
to stop you only pain will help
you and in the end you will
find yourself not alone because
you were ahead of everyone else

behind

i was left alone
so far behind
i stare at you
as you walk away
i feel like i don't
know anything but
i keep going
time is wasting
but i have real reasons
unlike others who pretend
attention is something
i sometimes wish but
i don't try to get it
it wouldn't be fair
but i get desperate for it
life sometimes doesn't seem
that important but
you always are to me
i get feelings deep inside
that you might be the
right person but don't realize
i wish for you to open your
eyes look back and see me
but it's only a wish
and nothing more than that