as sweet as sorrow

you & me

well i look at you,
you stare back
and i look deep
meaning is everything to me
and i don't take you so light
but this is how i feel
you look as if you want
you want to get rid of me
but i take you seriously
i take care of you
i do everything i can
you make me happy
that's something very great
nothing much makes me happy really
and you make me smile
no matter what kind of person
you are or seem to be
i'll be here for as long as i have to
and you now know that
so what is going to be your choice?
i hope that you consider this
because someone can't live without a heart
and you my dear, you are my heart
and let me be your mind
so calm and in time
i will protect you from everything
i will take all the pain away from you
i won't let you get hurt anymore
this is how i plan my revenge.

what have you done?

in all this time.
so much time.
what have you done?
probably just taken my soul
sold it away for a curse
and i may rest or suffer alone
you sure have come a long way.
from that place to here
what do you need me for?
i have no soul anymore
you took everything from me
and you never gave it back.

worthless

i'm a failure
nothing i do is right
i'm too concentrated on my loss
and i should be
i lost the most important thing to me
and that was my heart
it didn't break this time
but it's gone forever

Sounds

there's many sounds in my day
sometimes i hear the words but they make no sense at all
sometimes i think about it but it still doesn't work
so i take out something and take notes
so far i've been better at understanding such things
but when i do get lost my eyes close and i see
right before i fall and my eyes slowly close and i hear
the voice disappear and vanish and when i come back
the blood and sound all rush at me
my head hurts and i can tell i haven't been breathing right
and all the words make sense now and i can finally work
though in pain it's better to understand then to not suffer at all and understand everything

wondering

every single day
i look at myself
oh how much hate do i have to see?
and i plan on being happy yet
i know my dreams will get crushed
and i say all these sweet things
i try to be that person
that person that i want to be seen as
i've never hated anyone
i've never been like that
and my mind is so respectful that
no matter how much i try i'm always
always overlooked
but why?
my chest hurts and i don't know why....
my smiles fake and my laughter the same