Well the first thing i want to say is Thank You to all the people who seem to care about how im feeling right now due to ulquiorra related reasons. *hugs all*

so any way.... my day has been kinda boring and full of unproductive activities like laying down and staring at the wall, sucking with my ulqui plushy, and avoiding home work and my bathroom.... but there's a reason for that last one..... because of last night....

ok so.... living down here in the apartment is great!! i love it but.... there is a major spider problem..... i wasnt all that afraid of them before but now i think that there going up on my list of fears along with heights, ladders, and babies.... a few days ago, i was thinking that i havnt really seen a spider in a long time which is odd because i almost always see one like.... every day! so.... i was sitting on my bed waiting for anime to come on and a chill ran up my spine.... i looked around the room quick and i knew i saw something move but i didnt know where it was..... then my eyes stopped on the bathroom which is on the other side of the room. i didnt see any thing at first but i kept them their.... then i saw it move! IT WAS HUGE!!!! i tried to kill it but i was to scared!! then i got some raid and made a pond out of my bathroom with it but ..... raid does not work for spiders!!! he hid and then i couldnt get him and i didnt want him to get out so i closed the bathroom door..... but then i went to my bed again and hugged my plushys because it made me feel safer when i saw ANOTHER SPIDER!!!!! it was coming down on a web and i think i was able to kill it..... i tried to kill it with these one pair of shoes of mine that i dont wear but a spider web was in it and i threw it! DX i was so scared!!!!!!!!!! and then.... you will never guess.... ANOTHER ONE WAS NEAR MY WINDOW!!!! it was moving like it was drunk and i was like... dieing!!! i think that there out to get me!!! im not joking i think they want me dead!!! fucking spiders T_T why do they have to come out now of all times.... maybe they feed on depression T_T

so i only killed one out of 3..... and the others are still at large! i dont even want to go in my bathroom now! i dont know what im going to do when i need to shower for school..... speaking of which i need to do homework now..... its not much so it wont take long.... so i will be back to doing nothing in no time XD