NOTE: THIS POST MAY END UP TELLING A STORY. MEANING, EXACTLY THAT.
Since it's non-fiction so to say, I'll post it here because in reality, its actually an update. Will contain subliminal context.
Where have I drifted off to? I'm lost at sea. It seems calm...and peaceful. But I miss my home. I have made the biggest mistake in life...for any human. I should've known better. Now all I'm left with is regret. How can I be forgiven? All I want to do now is ride the waves I once knew and return to that peace of mind I once resided in. I will always believe there is hope....though it seems so far away. I apologize with all of my humanity...for what it's worth.
A child's laughter brings inspiration to my spirit. I will carry on. I will allow no pain if it can be helped. What there was, was all I needed. Evil souls, oh how they succeeded.
Vanity is left alone with me. I don't deserve the memories to be reborn from everything I cherished before. I can change. I will set my life in order. This will not go ignored.
Eternal beauty...how could I leave it. Again, I'm left to question myself of how I can be so foolish. I felt so blessed. In those times, my heart was complete.
So this is me, apologizing to the one I will always love. Please, hate me all you want...I just want to be forgivened. Weighed down with these words brings me to my knees. I cannot stand.
Calmed seas continue to carry me into my abyss. Perhaps this is best for me. The smiles I've once seened were never thought of as last resorts. I awoke to my realizations and moved. Somehow I crashed.
How does one go on like this? Obviously, there is hope. This will not be a waste of my time.
At times I wonder, will I ever see another shining day? The storm has awakened and I feel the fault.
Now here at the end, I feel the beginning. I will take the time and make myself a better person. I cannot be perfect. However, the path I now take is nothing but perfection. There is no other.
Jet black clouds approach. I am ready for this. I am ready for the world. I am ready for a change.
Sometime, I'll meet you again.
