Have you ever wondered what it would be like to live the same day twice? I don't mean like Bill Murray in Groundhog Day, doing the same thing over & over & "learning" from it. I mean what if you had a really, really bad day & then somehow got to relive it with all the opposite things happening? What once was your worst nightmare suddenly becoming a euphoric dream thanks to a few minor alterations.
The first weekend of February 2008 was the worst of my life in Japan to date. This year, without a doubt, the best. Both times I spent Friday night with someone I really like. The difference being that she really loves me, where he probably doesn't hate me, but had no idea that my happiness was so completely dependent on him. Last year, I couldn't sleep a wink. This year, slept like a baby. The Saturday nights, were spent getting drunk with someone I'm (eww........) interested in. Last year ended in me punching a pillar in his hotel room. This year, well I can't say I even thought about hitting things once during the night. Sunday was spent sleeping. Last year, that was due to my ridiculously high fever. This year, well, I was just tired. All these things were drastically changed by altering one tiny factor: who I was with.
When Lain said, "You should just rewrite bad memories. What isn't remembered never really happened." I used to take that to mean I should white them out. Get rid of them completely so I couldn't see the painful things anymore. But what does rewrite mean? It doesn't mean erase, it means cover up. Replace. Substitute. Fill up the page with color. So it was like those memories were almost erased by the new ones that were so completely opposite. White out's kinda see through after all. You need to put something darker on top.
OK, so the same weekend happening in two different years isn't exactly the same as reliving a day a better way, but still....
