So right now, at this very moment my mind is absolutely shot to hell.
For the first time in my life I am utterly lost. Why? Oh, lemme explain....

1- My gf/daughter's mother has apparently been cheating on me for the past 2 years with some scrawny jerk-off. It's funny because there was a period in which I felt we were like, drifting away a little and well, looke here. That was awesome to see. Truly was...

2- Since she's been with this guy on the extreme low for 2 years (might potentially be more for all I know...) now it brings to my wee li'l mind if Amaya really is mine. That question won't be answered for a least another week or so. Again, awesome. One of the best things to happen in my life could be just a symbol of betrayal.

3- I and 9 other workers at the hospice center I work at have been pretty much put on the back-burner. What this means? Basically, my main source of income is now somewhere in the friggin' clouds. Sweeeeet right?

Seriously, how the hell did this happen? I really, really would like to know.
I just want to friggin' wake up from this, but it's pretty darn clear this isn't a dream.