Upon visiting the 'regulars', as I shall now call them, over on MyO, I noticed something. They all seemed to be making lists of people who were still posting regularly, and were still sticking around.
I thought this was a good idea, and decided to make my own list from my friends list. I had about 12 people on it. I also visited kyofanatic13, and she has a friend on there, who managed to somehow find most people who were sticking with MyO, even if she didn't know them.
The list was amazingly short. You think that this site has hundreds of thousands of people on it. And her list had something like 30 people. Granted, she probably didn't have everyone who's sticking with MyO, but she had most of them. I was amazed that the list was so short. I was amazed to see my own name on that list, because I don't even know her.
I visited a good friend of mine after seeing she'd updated. The first post she'd done for a while. It was pretty much a 'goodbye' post. She left her contact details in it, and said a lot of deep stuff. So that's another friend people have lost.
All these friends, leaving or coming over to TheO... It makes me sad. So sad, I actually cried. I tell no lie. I'm not in a very happy mood anyway, but to see a lot of friends just leaving because of how everything is now... It just makes me even more upset. I'm not just thinking of all the friends I'm losing, I'm thinking of all the friends everyone else is losing.
I've been thinking about leaving a lot. To see pretty much everyone else leaving, it just makes me think that if I'm losing those good friends who have been there for me, and I've been there for them, then what good is it me staying around? But then, I think of all the people that are staying around, and how I'd just be one more friend gone to them.
I'm torn. Do I stay? Do I go? For now, I'm staying. But if it gets to the point where only 2 or 3 people are updating regularly, I'll be leaving. There'd be no point in staying if there are no friends.
I know a lot of you are over here on TheO, now. But I can't adjust to it. I can't just 'jump ship'. When I first joined, I joined to MyO, and that's where I'm staying.
