So many conflicting emotions...I honestly don't know what to do. I can't go against my father's word. I respect him too much that I fear that if I disobey him, I'm going against a part of myself. Maybe it's the culture, deep respect is given to our elders, especially to our parents. However, at the same time, I think I feel as though if I don't go through with this, I would also be going against myself. What am I to do? My father never supports me in anything I do, no extra curricular, no music, what kind of life does he expect me to live? With so many conditions set for me that I must abide by, how am I to carry out and discover what it is that is truly meant for me? How, in general terms, am I even to acquire this knowledge of myself? How is anyone to find out what they're meant to do in this life? This very thing, is what constantly brings me back to the conflicting emotions within me. This very thing, the reason that confuses my heart. In a way, I suppose this can be compared to the disney movie, Mulan. How am I to choose between duty and heart? This indeed is a difficult question. If anyone knows, or could atleast elaborate, please help me out with this. Pray for me, please. Thank you :]