Well, I have mixed feelings about everything. Everytime I find a reason for it not to be, something else always happens that causes it to come back. What's happening to me? Why am I so pathetic...then again, I am a hopeless romantic. So, I suppose it's quite funny whenever I encounter a realist that I'm so fascinated by but that I can't really say anything in front of. Admire from afar? Haha, not exactly...I'm running in circles again...maybe that's how I got lost in a circular building. Like all my posts are becoming-just a bunch of rambling and venting-so I feel shall this one be.
When has "I love you" become such an insignificant thing that it's so commonly used? People say "I love you" all the time, and don't mean it. To like someone is becoming a stronger word than love now. What's up with that? I mean, I know that there are many different versions of love, but why won't they say like? Hahaha as for me, I doubt myself a lot, but I think it's a fascination. :)
You know, this exact time last year, there was someone else who tugged at my heart so much, it ached. It's so strange revisiting those memories and thinking "that was sweet, but I really have moved on". It makes me smile, finally, I am able to truly smile about it. I have cried and hurt so much, followed by a period of numbness, and now, the time has finally come. I can look back at those memories and actually enjoy them, somewhat. It gives me peace. Finally, that part of me shall rest.
As for my current situation...well, I'm trying my hardest to not let it get out of hand. So far, it's been working...sort of. Haha like I said before, just a fascination.
Now that we're on break, I suppose I'll be writing more on here, but again, no promises. My diary has been missing for quite a while, and I have no idea where it may be...this troubles me...A LOT! Hopefully it'll turn out somewhere...so for now, I guess I'll just be sharing a portion of my thoughts here.