Okay, so I really don't know what I'm doing, and I'm still not sure as to the direction of my life...what's new hehe. All the colleges that I've applied to have accepted me. For awhile (and maybe still now) I had this conflict of passion vs. practicality. One of the colleges that I've been accepted to is in state, and I also already got accepted into their college of health professions as well. The other college that I've been accepted to, is out of state and private. However, they gave me a scholarship and I think I'd really enjoy it there. The other two colleges, one in state and another out, I went to go visit. The one in state was during some visitation day where we could witness being a music major for a day. I really liked it and got to attend classes and meet the professors and such. Unfortunately, I haven't sent in my application, and I'm not sure as to whether I should apply or not. The other out of state one, I absolutely absolutely loved the campus. It was so beautiful and I could totally see myself living there for awhile, unfortunately, the college didn't offer any of the majors I'm looking into (that is, unless I suddenly get some all-of-a-sudden strange aspiration to pursue physical therapy). But lately, I've decided to go to the out of state one with which I have applied to. For one, I think it would be better for me and benefit me...but why is this title down and discouraged, you ask? Well you see, I haven't exactly scheduled a visit day yet, we're still in that process. On top of that, even though I want to do music, I still haven't gotten a new voice teacher and on top of that I'm recovering from being sick and I'm still trying to revive my vocal cords. Also, the other option is to go for organ/piano. I thought this could work out because my background in piano is possibly more "professional" than that of voice. However, I'm not sure if I'll be fully able to bring about something together that will meet with the audition requirements. I thought I could, but now re-reading it, I'm not sure if "I got this". Tomorrow, I'm going to see my piano teacher tell her and hopefully we'll figure out some sort of solution (I'm praying) and then I'll contact the directors in charge of the music department from the college.
Even if I don't make the cut, I also reassured my parents (because there is a fee that you must pay in advance for room and board) that I'll just end up taking their courses in psychology/theology/philosophy or something. After all, that kind of stuff always intrigues me. :) I understand that if I'm not doing the right thing, GOD will tell me...but I need to make sure that I listen and that I'm open to the change. I must admit though, sometimes it's very difficult to figure out what's going on (because I mean really, I'm not even sure of what I'm doing). Well, that's my kinda-sorta plan. Typing this out and finally being able to put some thoughts to words has removed some of the stress, I guess.
I also need to figure out the whole thing with the dates of audition and when I'll visit because the first audition day conflicts with Snowball. When I told one of my friends that, she told my date and then the person who I consider as my best guy friend had a mini-panic attack. I reassured them that it'll be fine though...I hope. Basically, I really do just have to put it all in GOD's hands. Wow, I just realized how lengthy this is...but then again, I did say in the previous post that I'll go further next time. Haha