My head hurts and I feel dizzy. On occasion my head fills up with static, and it gets so bad that I can't even think straight, or sit up even. Who would've thought that sound could be so harmful? I feel so weak today, and I'm not sure why. I even had to stop playing the piano not even after 30 minutes because it felt like my arms weighed a ton, and when I tried to play, it just got worse and worse. Sounds from the television, other peoples' voices, everywhere are causing my head to throb. However, the droning from my computer with the breeze from my fan is beginning to induce sleep. The voices in my mind keep replaying thoughts and memories, and re-experiencing them is beginning to make me weary. Last night's dream alone was pretty emotional, and it wasn't exactly the greatest of nights...
Sometimes, when I'm asleep, my mind realizes that I'm sleeping, and then my mind tries to wake up my body. What's even more strange, is that my body doesn't listen to my mind, and my body locks up and doesn't move, and I start to hurt. My mind is awake, and realizes what's going on in it's surroundings, but can't do anything about it because my body refuses to function. Then, I start screaming in my mind for self-motivation and/or help in an effort to get myself moving because I can't move, but then end up frustrated because no one can hear me. No one realizes I need help. I can't even get my body to budge. That happens for awhile until either my mind or my body is finally able to gain control of the other and I either wake up or go deeper into the unconsciousness. Maybe all I need is a little sleep...