I think...that I will survive. Life comes at you fast. That insurance company is absolutely correct. Well, I have to admit. I think I'm finally ready to continue. I have accepted what is to become of me, and I'm still not 100% sure of what that is though. Today is the Feast Day of St. Ignatius of Loyola. I watched his documentary last night and read one of his writings. There was a part in the movie, where he was at a fork in the road. His traveling companion asked "which way will you go?" and he said "I go which ever way God will lead me." After saying that, he then released the reins of his horse, and the horse went down one of the paths.
That's where I am in life. Yesterday was just a day that helped me to be open to God's will. Currently, I'm learning to release the reins and let God lead me on. It's funny. It seems that everything does appear to be going full circle after all.
Soon, I will be going to WYD and shortly after that, college. This past week I had realized that this whole time, instead of preparing myself properly, I've been wrestling. Fighting with not only what I thought was my will and my parents' will, but with His will as well. I have to renew myself now. I feel like a hypocrite, and I've seen all that I've done, and I must atone for it all. I want to intensify the fire within my soul, and I'm so excited to be with people from all over the world who share my same desire. Even though some may be reluctant to go, I must pray that their eyes shall be open. Out of everything, our God, our seemingly different and yet one, same faith; though it is so mysterious that human thought cannot comprehend nor fully grasp it's vastness, is the one thing that makes the most sense to me.

It's time to begin.