It's amazing. The truth does set one free, but I can't help but feel my heart ache subtly from separation. I will keep moving forward, with all of my memories and my loved ones. Being in this environment has such a positive influence. The entire community is my support group. At first, I felt that I may not quite fit in well here, but I've managed to find myself surrounded by such great and wonderful people. I feel as though I fit in some strange way here, and now that I've had time to reflect, I was called to here this entire time. It's so fantastic to finally have a feeling of certainty, like I'm supposed to be here, and I know that I am. Insecurities in the form of shadows crept over me from time to time, but I always want to follow the light, no matter what. Being here brings me closer, to the Light, the Way, the Truth.
I really appreciate where I am in life right now. I feel like I'm leaving some things behind, but I don't want to spend the rest of my life looking back. I'm not going to just forget about them though. After all, I'm taking them with me. It's just that, when time gives me the opportunity to slow down enough to think, eventually I end up thinking about all the people I had to leave. I know that they support me 100% and miss me just as much as I miss them, but I have to be here.
I see the light in the distance
as I draw closer to it the images around me continually change.
No matter how much I wish for it, will anything remain?
The darkness inside begins to fade
as my memory purges my soul.
Despite all of this, I focus on the light
the living water which quenches my thirst.
I hold my heart and the lives that dwell in it.
My one request: to remember me.
You all possess shards embedded in yourselves
your own path, your own story.
I hope that you all know that I love you
even though it may hurt you
just as much it hurts me,
please don't forget.
I'll do my best, and I'll be back.