Who knew that it would be so hard to do that? No, I don't like anyone, don't worry. It must be just female hormones getting haywire. After being in Madrid, and also being here, I will say that it gives me hope though. It makes me feel better knowing that there are still legit gentlemen. And no, I'm not referring to the guys who go to the "Gentlemen's Club." Those aren't gentlemen at all. I'm talking about the ones who open doors for ladies, the ones who walk you back to your dorm, especially when it's already night time and even though they live in a different direction from you. The kind of guy who is enthusiastic about his faith and strong in his beliefs. Someone who has a sense of morality and who sees you as a person and not some object of lust. It makes me so happy that guys like that still exist. I've been reading a book, "How to find your Soulmate without losing your Soul" and it's amazing. The first chapter even gives you a list and explains in-depth the top ten guys to avoid. As I was reading that list, I kept thinking "Oh crap! I know guys and even girls who fit that description!! In addition to this, I know guys and girls who have or are dating someone like that." Also, another thought that would come to mind would be "Oh goodness....I've actually 'fallen' for guys like that before." and it makes me really happy that I didn't date in high school. If I did, (this is my opinion only) then I most likely would've been used, and end up being even more heartbroken and injured compared to what you've read in previous posts. It makes me happy having this book, and I feel that everyone could benefit from reading it.
There was a part of the book that sincerely caught my attention. It said "If you're not dating with your eyes on forever, you're just dating to break up. In other words, it's divorce practice." That made me realize, I don't want temporary. I want forever. With that thought, I think it helps me to guard my heart better, because with the more people I encounter, the more I come to realize some of the qualities that I would like to have my future spouse to have...that is, if I'm even being called to marriage.
Okay, so maybe I've already met a few "potentials" but I mean, thinking about it now, I could actually have "potentials" way back home. It makes me laugh though, because I feel so weird thinking about stuff like that because I always say that "I'm too young." It's as if my mindset still partially thinks that boys have cooties or something hehehe I already have friends who are married, but I mean, it's not like I'm going to jump into marriage either. I'm just going to be in love with God and let Him take care of the rest. :)