Well, it's okay. I think I need to go back into my journaling again. :) I haven't been applying my creativity that much, well, in the introspective sense. So, I'm going to try my best to work on that. Well, I've gotten back into one of the bands I absolutely love. It's been awhile since I've listened to them. In fact, the last time I really even paid attention to them was probably a year or so ago. They're the ones who's music speaks to me. The way their lyrics are laid out depicts exactly how I feel and how I've felt, which is amazing that such a band existed at a time. Talk about something that's tapped into my frequency.
"Because my dear you're too good to be
I can't find better reasons for losing sleep
just save me a place between your sheets
and I'll let you make a mess out of me."
"If I could make a promise to give you your last first kiss
would you swear to keep my smile hanging from your lips?
Because I'm still falling for your memory
still falling into the eyes
of the picture that I keep of you
it's keeping me alive.
I've been hiding in the real world
losing who I am
and I'm still having trouble dreaming dreams you'll never understand."
Well, that's all fun. It's raining today, it's been raining all day. I love walking outside around this time of weather (hehe) Life just keeps going, and I'm so thankful for God.
I know that the road is tough, I've had 18 years of it already, and I know that it's only beginning, but knowing that I'm not going it all alone, helps a lot. In addition to this, once you get through it, and you finally realize what you've done, the fact that you were able to overcome it, what can you do but feel thankful? Take baby steps, but also, don't be afraid to take the big steps either. Also, you can help the people who are going through something similar to what you just went through as well, and from that comes a satisfaction of being able to give. Your suffering is never in vain, offer it up to the Lord and for the dear poor souls in Purgatory, especially the forgotten ones. There's always something good that comes out of suffering, sometimes it just takes awhile to find. :)
