Alright, so this post really isn't going to be about soup, but I felt like it just fit somehow. (It makes sense...in my mind. Mwahahahahaha dontaskquestions) What's really funny is that I find myself feeling as though there isn't enough time. I feel as though my time here is numbered, but not in the life sense, but it a similar way. My life here in college will take a break, that is, until the fall, and it's going to be so weird being back at home again. Don't get me wrong, I think I'm terribly homesick, and I want to see my family again, but what of the Franciscan Family I have here? Also, when I come back to this place, it's going to be quite different as well: for instance, I'm not going to be living in the same residence hall next semester, so that alone really changes up things, I only hope that the friends I made and are making this semester carry over to next semester.
Speaking of new friends, I think I've discovered something about myself. Well, I guess in a way I've slightly known it, and am now just able to combine everything together. So, according to my introverted friends, I am an extrovert. On stepping back and analyzing myself, I think this is partially true, even though I really do enjoy alone time, I still get my "energy" from being around people. It's just that, well, here's the thing. Being here has made me become fully aware that I am just drawn to shy people. (shy = most likely introverted) I don't know, there's just something about them that makes me want to get to know them more and become friends with them. They're really cool too, and plus, it makes me so happy whenever they finally open up to me and actually share things about themselves that they would never say to you before. Wow, my little sister and Lizanya are right, I do like the weird ones LoL anyways, another thing is, I really like musicians. okay, so I've known this for quite some time now. I bet you're thinking "typical girl" but no. Sure, that whole "What? He's a musician?!? *lovestruck*" thing happens, but I consider myself (or at least would like to) a musician and just the whole essence of seeing and being seen, hearing and being heard, and the fact that the other person would acknowledge you for being one, is awesome. In addition to this, well, for me, whenever you play along side a person, and you just go well musically together, it's great. Therefore, my conclusion is this: I am drawn to introverted musicians.
There are these two guys who I'm just starting to get to know who are in the category of people I hope to still be friends with in the coming semester, and I really hope we stay friends, because they're really cool, musically talented, and complete introverts haha.
Now I bet your mind set is going to this question: Do I like any of them?
Well. In all honesty, I don't think I do. In fact, I don't think I like anyone right now, which feels amazing. However, just because I don't like anyone doesn't mean that I'm shutting myself out. I'm open to that window of opportunity I suppose. One of them has a girlfriend which is cool because then I can be even more comfortable around them and not have to worry about liking him or him liking me. That's the fun of having guy friends who are already taken, you can just be comfortable. Well, that's how I am, just speaking for myself. I'm just in the stage of getting to know them better. Plus, I'm just really comfortable around guys and have been hanging out with them more (which is good, because now it's kinda like at home). Plus, these two guys are really chill. That's another thing about me too. I don't like drama. It's really ridiculous. That's probably one of the reasons why I love to hang out with guys, is because (usually) they don't get caught up in drama and all that jazz. They're just chill. Girls can go on and on and on and it can get pretty crazy. Hahaha, I love how my thought processes are just going and going and going right now, I'm not even sure if I can keep up with all of this typing.
Anyways, this brings me to another guy. Actually, forget about it, there are currently too many to talk about and I'm not exactly sure how to bring them up too. Whatever, God's in charge of my heart, and that's all that matters. I just have to follow in His plan and all will be good.
Oh, by the way, I heard this from a friend of mine who went to a talk here and heard it from that person. It was something along the lines of:
"When God tells you something, He's going to make it really obvious because He knows that you're not smart enough to pick up on subtly."
I find this really reassuring, because I can't pick up on subtly worth anything, in fact, I can't even pick up on flirting unless it's extremely obvious (this is going to the EXTREMELY obvious too).
Meh, "Don't worry, about a thing, because every little thing, is gonns be alright."
