So...what now?

That's the question that keeps coming back to haunt me since I've graduated from college. The truth is, I don't know. I know I have to remember that I'm in no race with anyone other than myself, and that it just makes sense to go at my own pace because eventually I'll get where I need to be at the right time and place. The weird thing is just being in limbo I guess.

I feel like a little kid that has to jump from rock to rock in order to reach some place. The only problem is I know what the ultimate place I want to get to is, but I don't know what stops I'll make along the way. In addition to this, I feel like I've hit a stepping stone and have stayed on it because I have so many stepping stones laid out in front of me I'm not sure which one to take next. I have to think about if the stones are stable enough to be stepped on and that I can make it once I decide take that chance. In addition to this, I have to make sure that taking this step will lead me down the right path, and that I take it in confidence and not regret the rest of my journey through because of it. There are so many things to consider that I feel like for the time being I've just crouched on my current step debating on which way to go. That's basically how I feel right now.

Basics: what do I want? I want to be able to help people by using the gifts that have been given to me. I don't want it to be something mundane because I enjoy being able to be challenged creatively. Aside from this, I want to stay with Miles, the man I am dating now. That's basically all I've figured out so far. I guess that's a good start but I'm not sure where to go from here and now that I'm back home again being in a long-distance relationship bites. I guess I've braced myself for this so it's not as bad as our first summer apart, but it still has it's ups and downs.

I feel like I could rant forever but at the same time I have no idea what else to say.
I feel like I should really be getting sleep right now but my mind doesn't want to die down yet.
I can't even decide if I want to wish for company right now or just enjoy solitude.
I just know that I can't dwell on this same stepping stone for forever.