I can't believe that I still have a grasp on this one guy. If I'd tell him to do something, he just can't say no. But, I totally never believe him when he says yes anyways because he has broken every single one of the promises that he's made to me. Eventually, I just got sick and tired of hoping that maybe one day he'll actually keep a promise and never expected anything out of him...ever. But, with some re-evaluation, I've realized that I think I have something against him, plus, I use him as a way of venting all the frustration and pain that he has ever caused me, and that helps me in way though, because I don't want to be as close as we were before, it's just waaay too unhealthy for me...but it's so tempting. Using him as a way of venting just encourages the distance between us and the want and possible need for me to stay distant from him. He drives me insane! I hate to admit that maybe somewhere in one of my subconsciousnesses feelings of the thought of "more than friends" still remains...I mean, I like him as a friend, but at the same time keeping him as my friend hurts me. Part of me wants to be as close as before, but part of me just wants to have nothing whatsoever to do with him. It's like, all of these crazy things just happen when he is in my mere presence...I just, I don't even want to talk about it anymore.