- Created By KitKatKitty
Really long time
Hey guys, Sorry I haven't been on in forever.
I didn't die, or forget about you all, I promise!
Basically I screwed up and got grounded. This time until June. (my mom doesn't know I'm online right now)
I'll try to get on as much as I can, but obviously I can't much.
Anyway, other then that, life's been ok....Alright, I'm lying. Life hasn't been great. Mostly because a friend, I'll call her A is anorexic. And she and her mother are in denial. I got to see her a couple weekends ago (for the first time in two years), and it scared me because I instantly saw how little she's eating. How she refuses food with a ton of fancy excuses.
A isn't too skinny yet, but she is right on the cusp. And she told me she ODed on laxatives, and was Normal Weight Vomiting (it's only bulimia if you binge). She also told me she spit food out when her parents weren't watching.
A has a horrible self image, she always has. About a year ago she started cutting (that, thank any gods out there, she stopped after a while), and now she has an eating disorder. What's next? Suicide?
I'm so scared guys... She's like a sister to me. What do I do if she kills herself this way? I told my mom about the starving herself, and the laxatives. Mom tried telling A's mom about the starving. But A's mom isn't listening to us.
I think a lot of the problem stems from A's dad. I read that some girls become anorexic because they lack control over any part of their lives. That's true for A. Her father listens in on phone calls, reads her diary, and even knows the passcodes to any online things she has. Also, A is homeschooled, so there isn't any school to be free at, and she's not part of any social thing so I'm basically her only friend. (And he doesn't even like A talking to me)
....................I'm sorry to dump all this on you guys.
Other then that, I did a lot of yard work with my older brother. We're both getting $20+ for it. It was a lot of hard work.
Psychic Snow Day?
First off, thank you for all of your support with my cousin. He's doing as well as can be expected, and was released from the hospital. I truly can not thank you all enough for being such wonderful friends.
Next: SNOW!!! We had several inches, and had a TON of fun playing in it! ^_^ Washington has rather mild weather, and snow is rare. Ok, that's a lie. If you want snow, you drive for a hour 1/2 to the mountains. There's your snow. Anyway, we had real snow, in our own area!
It was the first real snow day Zack, my nine yr old brother, ever experienced! ^_^
Last: I have discovered a new tv show; Psych! (Yes, I know it's been around for a while, but we don't have cable) My entire family is obsessed with it! I love Shawn! Plus, he's cute! Like, really REALLY cute!
I have the strangest taste in men....
I like Andres (the guy who can't speak English), James Roday(Shawn in Psych), Gordon Michael Woolvett (Harper from Andromeda, and (a little) Adrien Brody (Władysław Szpilman from The Pianist).......I don't get why though...I mean, what about them attracts me? They're not that cute!
Thank You All
SO, I realise I've been pretty much complaining about my life. I've been all "FML" y'know. But, I know I'm pretty lucky.
I have all of you guys offering me your support. I thank you all. You're giving me strength, you're giving me hope. Thank you for being such wonderful friends. You're making this easier on me, and my family. Thank you.
Why would you do THAT!?
Well, the hospital my cousin is at is really, really stupid. He was addicted to Heroin. They gave him Morphine as a painkiller. Morphine is a crystalized versian of herion. Which made him want it again.
So he called his old pusher. Pusher snuck the drug to him. He overdosed. His heart stopped, and he stopped breathing. In every sense of the word, he died. Thank providence the nurse came to check on him and saw him in that state.
Why would a hospital give a recovering drug addict the drug he's recovering from? It's in his medical record that he was addicted to that crap! Yeah, he's in a sh*tload of pain, and morphine can help with that, but he still! He should get a weaker painkiller that's NON-ADICTIVE!
That, and my extended family is really dumb. His (abusive/controlling) step dad decided that no one was allowed to visit him. He said they had to practice "tough love" on him. Unfortunately, everyone in the family submits to his will.
That's what gave my cousin the opportunity to even call the pusher.
I'm tempted to forget about my pacifistic beliefs and strangle the lot of them. Okay, that wouldn't solve anything, but it would be nice.
