Fate...

This morning while I worked I began to think about the time paradox. If we travel to the past, will we change the future? Yes. But since it already happened, we will not see the change when we go back home. So that got me started on fate. I'm reading a book where fate is very much real. So I started thinking about fate. Destiny. The thought of not being able to control what I will do annoys me.

Another thing I think about a lot is how one person can be sooo happy. While another person is sooo sad. Like how a baby can be taking his first breath, while another young child takes his last and dies. In the same hospital. Or how when a young women is getting married to the man of her dream, while another is waiting at home for her husband to come back from cheating on her. And other things of the sort.

trust

Hmmm......I was talking to someone,
and I started thinking about the people I trust with my deep, dark, secrets. I'd have to say Kyon (my cuzz).

I think I start to be able to tell someone when something is up after they sense it and ask me about it. I hadn't seen (or spoken to) Jeffrey (his real name, Kyon is a nick) in 7 years.
Then when I spent a week and a half with him it was so wonderful! He could sense that something was stressing me out and asked me about it.

I was stressed about Andrew
(this was before we were dating)
and the fact I was starting to think I am bi.

I told him and he just listened!
He didn't try to me any lines about what I should do,
or how it's wrong to stress about that stuff!

He just listened.

Since then, I have been trying to as he. When I listen to people I don't give them advice unless they ask for it, and NEVER belittle their worries! ^_^

But one thing I do differently from Kyon, is when Andrew comes to me upset, I tell him I will pray for him and that God and Jesus love him...No matter what!

See, Andrew is Atheist...but he is longing for something that will help. Something that will stay the same, and never break. He needs unconditional love! He needs God....So I tell him the message of Christ...

...no matter how much I'm doubting...

sorry, my music reflets my mood....

yay it's today!!!

HELLO!!! 'Sup? Side's gas prices!!!

Today nothing much happened, but I'm thinking about maing a new world for my youtube videos.......Do you think I should? I'm still sick with the flu, but I'm feeling a bit better. I got an email from my friend Alex, he made the youtube video I'm posting! He's the one who falls off the bike, and in part of the vid he's wearing a sonic shirt! ^_^

life as we know it

Yuck, I have the flu! And it sucks!! Other then that, last night I went to see my friend dragon play her harp in a concert. She was great! I love harps, don't you?

Then I got home and got on the comp! THE RP I'M IN WAS PICKED BACK UP!!! WOOOOOT!!!! Yes, I know, lotsa exsitnent, lol. Plus three of my friends were on gaia, so we talked for a while! Andrew and I flirted the whole time, lol. And I told what I love about him! ^_^ And James and Ben and I just kinda joked around! ^_^

Right now I'm trying to look up game consoles for my older brother's bday. He's turn 18 on the 21st.

Today's video!!

The Diary of Jane Acoustic~Breaking Benjamin

Wow.....

My friends and I are having a VERY interesting conversion on gaia!
James[16], A.J.[17], Andrew[17], Ben[17] Tom[17] and I were talking about cars, and James wants a fancy car because he thinks girls will flock to it. The older guys [who are all about to be 18] told him he was way to young to be thinkng about girls, well I got on and asked why they think he shouldn't think about girls, when I [who am two years younger then him] can think about guys and they have no prob. Ben said it's because 14 year old girls don't think "sex, sex, sex!!" Diana [17], Ben's gf said I might. So I got on and read all about "how I think."

Omigosh, you gotta watch my fave youtube vid! ^_^ It's awesome!