THIS IS A PRAYER WRITTEN ON FEBRUARY THE 7TH DURING CLASS

Do I possibly take hope from that one single fact made obvious to me, the fact that my happiness is being attacked? The fact that the Devil is attacking me with such attention to detail? The fact that my own heart seems to resent my life? Do I use this brutal fact made plain in my heart to remind myself that I must be important to merit this renewed attack? God has a plan for me, I know. Shoud I take heart or succumb? Only He can help me. I do have a way to make it in this life. I have Hope, and to this I must cling. I love God, I want to live for Him, yet I feel inadequate all the time. I feel like I am not living up to His standards. I am too distracted. To "worldly." I feel the weight of my guilt hang around me, pulling me to the pits of despair. Into these pits I sink once again, and once again my way of escape seems ever narrower, ever more hopeless. I need to trust Him to get me out, yet when I barely use my time wisely I feel like I brought this on myself. How can I lose this parasitic weight?

LORD give me strength. I need to rely on Him. And only Him. I submit to Him forever more.