This is how an Original Character of mine feels deep inside. If there are any comments on wanting to know about his past I'll gladly post it!
(Present tense)
Standing alone on a cold clear evening Dante L stares up at the cresent moon, his clawed hands hanging at his sides. A glint of pain shines in his multi colored eyes as memories forever burned into his mind rear their ugly heads. Without realizing it his fists clench until the claws built into his knuckle bones dig into the flesh of his palms. Warm tears sting the corners of his eyes as the scene of his rape seems to play in front of his eyes like a horrific movie, his mind forcing him to re-live it over and over. The movie switches to seeing his insane self raping first the Inu, then the asian man that is now a good friend.
(Past Tense)
How the fuck did he get accepted after everything he'd done? He had left gashes on both of his victims, and though he hadn't been in his right mind he blamed himself for the scars he still saw on Henry's arms and back.
(Present Tense)
A loud cry of anguish leaves him as he drops to his knees and holds his head in his hands. Without thinking he tears his shirt off and unsheaths his claws, the pain and memories too much for him to bear. His metallic claws drag across the bare flesh of his chest, fresh red blood trickling from each gash. Each time the memory replays he digs at himself making himself bleed...paying for what he did to them. Blood loss forces him to stop, puddles of his own blood forming around him as ir drips freely down his body. The pain of fresh cuts and gashes covering his arms, back, sides, finally kick in and stop him from continuing the self mutilation. A final cry of pain escapes him as he falls forward to the grassy ground, his eyes closing as sweet unconsciousness consumes his mind.
(Past, then Present Tense)
This time...he had not finished what he'd set out to do. But how long before he simply throws himself from the very cliff he now lays on....Nobody knows or sees the scars he leaves on himself...but this time he was careless...no shirt or jacket could cover his neck and hands...He went too far. Now he'll have to be treated by a doctor and they'll know...but for now he doesn't care...No. Because exaustion has claimed him...
This is a fun little meme I did for no reason...It gives 25 facts about me that nobody knows. Who is brave enough to do it too? xD
1. I can watch intense horror movies but jump out of my skin if somebody suddenly pokes me.
2. I often find myself growling if angry or agitated.
3. In my lifetime I've woken up 5 times (last time a few days ago) in mid conversation with a dream. o.o
4. My anxiety used to be so bad I was terrified to walk to my mailbox 7-10 feet from our front door.
5. I've always had at least 1 dog alive since I was born.
6. I have Asperger's Syndrome, but I don't care who knows so there. Ha! xD
7. I trip/walk into a wall or door/fall up or down stairs/trip over nothing/fall off of something at least once a day. -.-;;
8. I'm extremely gullible.
9. I sometimes watch sad movies or scenes just to cry.
10. I'm a cuddle bug.
11. I refuse to think of myself as weak in any way.
12. I'm obsessed with wolves foxes and lions.
13. I prefer Lucille Ball over Eddy Murfey.
14. I'd watch Tom and Jerry or Looney Tunes over Chowder or Adventure Time any day.
15. I think Justin Beiber is a cool kid with a hard time.
16. I literally cannot "hate" anything or anyone. o.o
17. I played with nascar toys while other little girls played with dolls. xD
18. I'm a proud tomboy.
19. I cannot handle any compliments without majorly blushing. xD
20. I have a very odd sense of humor.
21. Disney movies rock. That is all.
22. I used to watch Captain Planet and He-Man.
23. I like to sleep upside down on my bed.
24. I still have a HUGE collection of pokemon cards.
25. My most common reaction on any instant messenger is to either go "hmm" or poke somebody randomly.
I wrote this a little while ago in the midst of a dip into depression. It's pretty obvious I was upset hmm?
Anger burns through my veins,
Burning away at my chest.
How I go day by day with such uncertainty
The truth evades my senses
Fear chills my bones
A cold grip tightening around my heart
Sucking the life from my tormented soul
Why do I put up with this
Trouble follows me like a looming shadow
Tendrils of darkness snake out toward me
They grasp my limbs and pull
Tearing me assunder
One voice thick with terror calls to me
Another drowns me in hatred
Which road do I take
How can I save everyone when I myself am lost
I save others
Or so I think
My strength is in my head
An inflated ego that I never realized was there
Old wounds open setting a red river flowing
The rivlets trickle down my skin
The past returns to the present
I feel the weight begin crushing me
Down...down...down...
Into a darkness that holds it's arms wide
Ready to welcome me
To watch as I give in and die
