Alias +

I have been going through a lot as far as drama goes, and I had to protect my tweets on twitter because somebody stalked them. Then I started using my old one, which only my family knows about but they never use it. I have 3 different aliases (idek if thats the right spelling) now. I only had 2 before. Chizuru and Kanra. I can't tell my 3rd one in case she reads this stuff too...which would be unfortunate. And sad. And pathetic...lol. Anyways, if any of you want to follow me on twitter, just hit me up in my inbox. I'll give you one of my acounts. I frequently use both.

My Ciel Cosplay...

So last week I recieved my Ciel cosplay wig in the mail. I got very excited, but it's nothing I would wear unless I am in the Ciel cosplay considering the fact that with it on, I look old. haha. I got paid today...and got the balls to buy the cosplay costume. The actual Ciel outfit. x_x I did it. haha. Woo. Okay. Yeah It seemed too easy so I was so scared, but I did it. And I am nervous my mom is going to be mad at me, but why have the wig, the ring (which I got in the mail today and it's gorgeous), and the boots (that I used for my Ritsuka cosplay) and have them go to waste? I mean, I earned this money! My mom thinks that buying cosplay stuff is a waste of my money. She always tells me "What's going to happen when you grow out of cosplaying and you have all of this stuff?" I'M NOT EVER GOING TO GET OUT OF COSPLAYING! MY KIDS WILL COSPLAY WITH ME ONE DAY! SO HA! hahaha. That's what I have to say about that. XD. So yeah this is what I bought:

http://www.ecrater.com/p/14484728/kuroshitsuji-black-bulter-ciel-phantomhive?gps=1

I like it. *Sigh* I'm not ready for my mom to bitch, though. XD.

If I win the ebay bid that I am winning so far, I am going to have a Gumi wig. Gumi, a vocaloid. It's so cute, but I could care less if I win it or not. I'm actually hoping that I don't so I save some damn money XD. Sometime within the next 2 months I need to buy my sister's cosplay (Alois Trancy)....but that's 80 dollars. 80 dollars that she won't appreciate. So yeah... but we need it before November in case my uncle takes me to Daisho Con for my birthday. lajdf;lja ;lfj edjafldj;f

Pandora Radio? haha

I downloaded Pandora on my android because a coworker wanted to use my phone to listen to music. I love it! XD. I'm listening to show tunes! LOL. I love it <3

6 more days!

6 more days until Wausaubicon <3 :D. I am way excited. But I am also pissed off that there will be someone there that I despise. She's only going because she knows I'll be there. She doesn't even like anime! Or video games, at that! She's a POS. Seriously. Then someone else might show up, but I don't know him personally. He's friends with my best friend, but she can't stand him.

I am really anxious and somewhat upset because it is only Sunday.

I am also an ebay junky as of late. It's bad! XD. I have spent almost 60 dollars on there so far! XD. I got my Ciel wig yesterday! I now have the wig, the shoes, and I ordered the ring and it should be here in a few weeks. Now all that's left is the actual cosplay :P. I bought my sister her birthday present. It's an Alois wig from Kuroshitsuji. Once I have more money, I will buy my costume and then hers. I have to do it before November, though, because around Christmas, everything gets messed up. haha. Yeah. Okay so I guess that's it for now. I'm starving. I gotta eat.

After Saturday

After Saturday at work with what happened when I got sick..things havn't felt the same to me. I just...I'm getting into a depressive state. I hate it, because it's not like me. Tonight I hate to work with that manager. Everything seemed back to normal. I don't think it was. I just felt down the whole time. The new guy was upsetting me and says hurtful things and my friend tried killing herself. And he didn't even care (he's closer to her than I am). It pissed me off. Then I messed up and my manager and a coworker was making me feel really guilty, mostly my manager. They made me feel like a complete failure. Before work we had talked about how to take fries out after the fry scoop was in the dish pit and he told me not to use tongs. So the time came when I needed fries and I asked him what I should do if I can't use the tongs. He told me to use my hands...my HANDS. Hot, hot french fries right out of the friers and I am supposed to put rubber gloves on and pick them up...with my hands. He got pissy because I wasn't sure if he was kidding or not and he did it himself and was an ass about it to me. He was so mean. He acted like I was stupid. I just...I feel awful. I don't know what to do. I don't like it... Gah.. I have to work with him again Saturday... I just.. I feel helpless.